Unwritten

"Where am I?" I said to myself as I reached a place that was covered in white. I felt myself start fading in to what has become my new reality. *why did I have to go up on that ledge in the first place* I thought as I explored this heaven like place. I stumbled upon this huge gold coloured gate with something that looked like an immortal being stood next to it. I approached the gate when all of a sudden the mysterious figure started to come towards me. "Halt! Who dares stumble upon this heavenly gate?" He asked as he looked at my tattered clothes and some bruises on my arm. "I'm Jesse. Uh Jesse Meyers." I said very hesitant. He looked me up and down and then pulled out a clip board with a long list of names on it. "Hmmmm. Jesse Meyers?" He questioned as he scanned the names of people on the list. "Ahh here you are." He said while looking into my icy blue eyes. "You may enter". The ground started the rumble as the golden gate opened producing a bright light. I covered my eyes and walked through the gate. On the other side there were a bunch of people walking around in white clothing. I looked down and my tattered clothing was gone and I too was dressed in this white robe. I wandered around like a lost puppy. Barely anyone talked to each other and all you could smell was rose petals in the air. "Hello" I said as I walked past this hot guy. He just starred at me and nodded. "Are you talking to me?" He asked. "Umm yea. I was wondering if you knew where we were?". I obviously knew where we were but I needed to be completely sure. "Actually I'm pretty sure we're in heaven" he told me. I thought so. I was just too afraid to admit it. I guess we're all in heaven. "T-thanks" I stuttered. I carried on my way and just wandered around. *I can't believe I actually made it to heaven* I thought. I never let that thought bother me too much as I walked around. All of a sudden I tripped and toppled over another hot guy. "Watch where your going" he screamed as he looked me in the eyes. "I'm sorry. My name is Jesse Meyers. I'm new here." I told him. "Hi I'm Kenny Crane." He said as he helped me up off the ground. Kenny had really nice green eyes with a chin strap and a nice jaw line. He's so hot! "So how'd you get here?" He asked me as we started to walk. "Well long story short, I was up on a roof top about to climb back onto it and my foot slipped from underneath me and I fell to my death. It was traumatizing transitioning into the spirt world. I saw my mother reading my suicide note and I couldn't watch it anymore. I'm glad I transitioned here though." I said. He just smiled and chuckled a bit. "How'd you get here?" I asked. "I was at a music festival with my girlfriend and I got shot." He said. *wow that's very tragic* I thought as we just walked around. Heaven isn't a really fun place. There is nothing to do, no sound what so ever and all the people just stare at the floor. Everyone is wearing these ugly robes and we are all just one. We look like a white blob all huddled in a huge white room. Looks like we're in the nut box but I mean at least I still have my sanity. "I think we hit the edge" I said as we walked into a force field like object. "Better turn around" Kenny said looking down at me. "Jesse Meyers!" I heard my voice call from up above. "You have been summoned!" A huge beam shot down from the ceiling and sucked me into another room. In the middle of the room stood this big tall man. "Young Jesse Meyers" he said as he bellowed me over. "You have been granted passage from heaven to earth at anytime you want. You can only use it once so use it wisely. It last for a day. Have fun." He said as I got sucked through the floor. I landed back in that white room next to Kenny. "What was that all about?" Kenny asked. "Umm I have been granted access to go back to earth for a day" I said with excitement in my voice. "That's great. I wish I had something like that so I can see Maxine again. I miss her like crazy." He said. I really do feel bad for the guy. He's been here longer than what I have. He deserves it more than me. "I think I'll go tonight." I said as I shouted to the cloud. "I'm ready to visit earth!" A huge hole opened in the middle of the floor which I jumped into. I landed on my bed at my mothers house. I got up and tried to open the door but my hand passed through it. "I'm still just a lost soul" I said as I passed through the door. I floated down the hallway. Something was wrong with this picture when I got to the living room. I saw my mother with my charred story in her hands. She tried to read every word on the page but it was way to burnt to read. "Why did I do this?" I heard her call out. "I killed my own baby!" I never heard her call me her baby before. Those words hurt me. *this is so hard to watch. I should have waited to use this gift* I thought as I watched my mother cry into my story. She got up from her spot and rushed to her bedroom. She got out her drug collection and started a fire in the trash can. I never saw her do anything like this. She took her drugs and threw them into the fire. I could smell all the different kinds of drugs in the air. It smelt like a rotting body that has been left out for months. It was so disgusting. I think my death my have changed her ways. She really did love me. Why did she not show it though? My mother got up and walked out to my bedroom. She made sure everything I had was still out and nothing was broken. She kept my bedroom as a shrine to me. I'm so grateful that I saw this moment. I can't cry as a ghost but I can feel my heart throb. I watched her as she shut my bedroom door and walked back down the hallway to her room where she lid down and slept for hours. I just sat there watching her sleep. She looks so innocent when sleeping. Actually I think she's not a bad person anymore. The next day I watched her walk out of the apartment and went to my funeral. It was like living my own death again because everyone was wearing black and crying their eyes out. It was so upsetting that they never played my favourite song. I was so mad at them but I mean they did hold a funeral. My day was coming to a close. Very shortly I knew I was going to me sucked back to heaven with Kenny. I wanted to hug my mother at least one last time. I hovered over and tried to give her a hug but went right through her. My time was coming to a close when I starred into her eyes I saw all her emotions. A beam was about to creep up from above and suck me back. I can feel it. It gave me enough time to lie in my grave plot before they buried me. The beam cracked the sky and I got sucked up as fast as a vacuum cleaner sucks up dust. It couldn't end like this it just can't. I watched as all the eyes were focused on the sky. They must have seen the beam. I appeared right next to Kenny again. Right back where I started. At least i got to say one last goodbye to my mother. I knew she saw my soul get sucked from my casket. She knows there's hope and I'll be with her everywhere she goes. At least she's safe. She isn't doing any drugs anymore which made her life a whole lot better. I heard she started to date again. As for Kenny. He got his chance to see Maxine again. It's been years and she still wears the locket he gave her after prom. She's also dating another person. I'm sure Kenny is glad to see that. At least he's a part of her everywhere she goes. But as for now. I'm stuck here with all these silent people. I won't be getting back to earth anytime soon.