𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘧 𝘪 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳? - 𝘗𝘰𝘯𝘺𝘣𝘰𝘺 𝘊𝘶𝘳𝘵𝘪𝘴 (𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘖𝘶𝘵𝘴𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘴)

I Need Everything To Stop.

Sodapop's POV:

Oh my God. No, no, no, no, no, no. This can't be happening.

I let out a scream, not him, I can't lose him. I tell Dar to quickly get towels and the first-aid kit. Then Steve and Two-bit come up.

"What happened?!" Two-bit says.
I can barely get the words out. "Pony, he, he-" Then I just start sobbing.

Two-but goes and sees what's wrong and his jaw drops, he was right. "Steve, call 911!" He says, and Steve immediately goes down to call them. Dar got the towels and first-aid kit so we set the towels down on the fold and get Pony out, I check if he's breathing, thank God he is.

I grab the arm wrap from the kit and wrap it around his wrists hoping the bleeding will stop, it doesn't. Almost immediately we have to change them again, then again, then again. All I could do was hold him while crying, whispering that it's going to be okay in his ear hoping he wakes up and hears me.

Ponyboy's POV:

I woke up to coldness, crying, and whispering in my ear. Why am I still here? No, this wasn't supposed to happen, I was supposed to be dead. Why?

"He's awake!" I hear someone say, the one holding me.
"It's going to be okay honey, stay awake now please. We're going to get you help." Soda?
"S-soda..?" I say, wishing I didn't speak.
"Yes honey?"
"Why did you save me?"
"Why wouldn't we?"
"I deserve to die, I wanted to be dead."

Sodapop's POV:

'I deserve to die, I wanted to be dead'

'I deserve to die, I wanted to be dead'

'I deserve to die, I wanted to be dead'

Did I just hear that? Did Pony, MY Pony just say he deserved to die, that he wanted to be dead. I know I need to be strong for Pony right now but I can't help but start to sob.

I yell at him "No you don't! We need you Pony, I need you!"

He looks at me with disbelief, like he didn't know that. He had to of knew that, but did he? How long have we not noticed him struggling like this? I knew he was depressed but not this bad, my baby, my kid brother tried to kill himself.

Two-bit chimes in "We need you Pony, we love you."
We hear Pony scream "No you don't! I'm nothing!" He never screams. Especially not something like this. He really thinks that low of himself. My poor baby.

Steve comes up and tells us the ambulance is going to be here in 2 minutes and Pony goes hysterical. "Why?! Why did you save me I wanted to die! Let me be! I want to be dead, I can't do this! I was ready!" It just broke my heart, but even then I still can't imagine how Pony feels right in this moment.

I hold him tighter making sure to whisper in his ear that I love him over and over again till they finally arrived. They pull him out on a stretcher and tells us only one person can come, me and Dar both volunteer but he says I can go because I won't freak Pony out as much and he'll go pack for Pony.

Darry's POV:

I can't believe what just happened, along really tried to take his own life? Does he know how much that will affect us if he's gone too, me and Soda would never recover from that.

I go and grab the note he left me, also giving Steve and Two-bit their notes. I start bawling my eyes out, I almost never cry but man, that's my kid brother right there and knowing I didn't help him enough and he didn't feel comfortable enough with telling me or Soda about his thoughts makes me feel terrible.

I look over to see even Steve crying. Two-bit's jaw is dropped, he looks like he's about to scream. I can't blame him.

Ponyboy's POV:

They are sticking needles in me and redoing my bandages. I hate it. Why did I have to live.

"Soda, I need it to stop, please."
"Need what to stop honey?"
"I need everything to stop."

Now he's just looking at me blankly, like he's trying to find the words to say.

"Don't worry, it'll stop soon, I promise. It's going to be okay."