To the moon and back

chapter8

Rishi's pov

Why are u running away from me saanu. I want to ask forgiveness from u. I want to ask for a second chance. I know whatever I did was wrong but that was for my father. I know how much u suffered. Hamsa told me everything whatever happens in her home. Whenever she calls u I am always there beside her. At least by her I get to know about you. Sorry saanu I am really sorry please forgive me. While thinking about all these my eyes welled up with tears. Then I got fresh up. Opens my laptop to work. I have to attend conference in kasturbha medical college. So decided to make preparation. I tried to concentrate on the presentation. But it's of no use. By mind only reminds her. Especially the day we both met at cafe. Her each and every word made me feel guilty. But I didn't know she loved me that much.

Flashback (in the cafe)

I was waiting for her in the cafe. My heart was beating fast. How to face her after whatever I did to her. Wahile thinking all this she enters the cafe.
"Hii rishi"
"Hii saan.. Samanvi"
"How r u" She
Asked me, but I don't know what to answer. "Haa fine" I replied to her and she was smiling sarcastically to my reply and said "only fine, u should say  fantastic or suberb. Tomorrow is ur engagement and u are saying only fine😀"
"Hmm" I nodded my head. I don't have answer for this. It is killing me to hear these things from her.
"Then" She asked me.
"I am sorry saanu, I am really sorry  I didn't mean to hurt you. Please give me chance to explain. I know ur hurt. Please forgive me whatever I did was for my parents" I said all this in a one go my eyes were filled with tears. I was about to explain to her what situation I agreed to for this marriage. But she stopped me by putting her finger on my lips. 
"Today I am speaking u only have to listen. Don't interupt in between. Firstly I won't forgive u. U broke my heart to the extent that will never become normal. U know what rishi after my bad experience with my first relationship I never want all this. But u made me fall for u. Being a stupid I fall for u hardly and u will be the last  also. I won't love anyone because I can't. I don't need any explanation for ur engagement it's ur life u can do whatever you want. But please don't cheat her. At least be loyal to her. Anways ours is done. Congratulations rishi" After this she stood up from the chair and left from there but i was standing there only. She confessed to me. I was waiting for this for so many days but I am not in a state to accept her confession. After 10 steps shr turned back and came in front of me and hugged me tightly tears were rolling down from her eyes. After the hug she took my hand in hers and said " U know what rishi I love u forever and ever and also I hate u forever. I wanted to tell u this because I want to free myself from the guilt that I didn't answered for ur confession. Don't think too much I will never come in front of ur eyes. I am going back to manglore. I will never come to banglore if in case I have to come. I will try my best to avoid u. From this day we both are strangers. I don't know who u are u can marry whom u want I don't have any problem. Thanks for everything. Haa wait I have something for u." She took a gift box from the  bag and gave it to me. "Byeee" After saying this she held my head and kissed my both cheeks and forhead. I was amazed by her act and feeling guilty also. After waiting for 3 mins give me a peck on my lips. I was standing like a sculpture. Tears are rolling from my eyes. After that she left from there but not from my mind. I know she is the only one who will be there in my heart forever.
"I love u saanu I love u so much forever and ever. Please try to forgive me. I am really sorry." These are the only things which are running in my mind. Then I opened the gift box.

My heart pinches after seeing the gits. Both the gifts are really nice. But the handmade card was cute just like her. If this is the situation before I should have accept this as a her boyfriend. But now I am a stranger to her. I deserve her hater I know am not a perfect choice for her. I hurted her so much. I broke her trust and heart atleast I will keep this things with me. Her last and only memories.

Flashback ends

Now also tears are starting to fall from my eyes.  I was controlling my tears.  Someone put their hands on my shoulder. I rubbed my eyes to stop the tears and turn to see who is there.
"Hey monkey why are crying, what happened" Hamsa asked.
"I am not crying" I try to act normal.
"Haa I can see ur not crying but ur eyes" She said. I didn't replied to her. Then she come and sit beside me. "I know why u are u sad. Let me clear u something. Saanu akka is ready for marriage she will marry you but... " She replied but after this she keep quite.
"Continue the next sentence why are u quite" I eagerly asked her I am really happy. But this but in her sentence making me restless. "Wait broo, she is okay with the marriage but not with you"
"What do you mean" I raised my eyebrows at her.