Cold As Ice

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{PRESENT DAY- JULY 2015}

ARGHHH! It's not even like I like him or anything, I think I simply just got too attached, cause bmt I don't even care that he might have a girl who's flawless, latino, doesn't wear weave, natural and has a banging body cause I know he'll come back to me in the end.. Well at least I think I do.

In fact why am I even stressing this bullshit, he's not worth it.

And to think that he even had the audacity to appear in my dream last night, you're bloffing !

But on a reals, I really and truly do not like him nor do I love him. LOOOL LOVE? No waiiii, Me, Nkeru love a boy ?, top joke !

Like back then when we first started speaking I didn't even know who he was or that he knew a few of my friends. I really just thought he was a little year 9 boy that thought he was a bigman and was such a trouble maker. But little did I know that those convos would lead me into something that I never thought possible.

As by now you should all know that I do not show affection unnecessarily, if you don't deserve it then I will not give it to you. My walls are built soo high up that only God's sent can bring them crashing down.
I've seen what heartbreak has done to my friends and I'm not looking to go through that, I give them advice so wouldn't it just make sense that I practice what I preach ?
But this little, no more than 5'7 boy has made those ever so high walls start to erode slowly and crumble.
But NAAA not me, I'm not about to get hurt and fucked about.
" I would never hurt you intentionally" he said.. A sentence that I find SOO hard to believe.

I do not ever believe a word any of these little boys say, most of them are fucked and need serious help.
This is why I shield my heart, make it ice cold so nothing can get through. Most call me heartless, rude, say I have attitude problems, say I'm emotionless, feel no pain and even a warrior, but the ones saying it are always the ones who end up trying to hurt me or my friends, they all ways end up fucking about in the end anyway, so what's the point in me giving them my time of day when I have them all figured out already.

Call me mean but if I don't fuck with you from the start then it will most probably stay that way.

{PAST- FRIDAY-DECEMBER 2011}

*school bell rings*
YESSSS fammm, finally school's done for the Christmas holidays, to say I am gassed would be an understatement.
I rushed out of my English class and to my lockers to meet up with my girls.
We rounded up then left out to the chinese buffet, this was a routine we done everytime we closed from school for either Christmas, Easter, half / full terms or the end of the year.

That chinese was soooooo buffff ffs. I was routing home when I heard bare pings from my BBM. I took out my phone and preed all the broadcasts that people were sending, wow,
Madness
I deleted half of the ones from people I didn't know but opened a few from my friends, cause most likely I knew the people they we broadcasting so I would just add.
After checking all the Broadcasts I didn't really know anyone so I ended the chats and replied to my separate ones.

Entering my yard I smelt the cooking of jollof rice, my mouth instantly started to water, I went upstairs, changed out of my uniform then went downstairs to go grab myself some rice and chicken.

After eating I went to my room, brought out my bb and started bbm'ing.

I preed my recent updates and came across BAREEEE people I didn't even know. A lot of them where from SW, these times I live in East loool.

'T.DOT TOP DON MERKS'
'Shaquavelly'
'Fly'Boy Tiyone'

All these updates from these ridiculous display names were popping up, how I got these people on here, I wonder.