DIFFERENT NUMBER ; heeseung

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"What does Yeojin has to do with your relationship with Jana? " Riki doesn't understand. Or maybe he did, he just doesn't want to believe it.

Sunghoon smiled, taking an another stick then lighting it up. He inhaled an amount of smoke then blew them out with satisfaction.

"It's Jana, " he says. "She's the one who threatened me...." He paused to take a puff once again.

"We either have a relationship, " A bitter laugh escaped his lips. "Or she will post that sex tape. "

He shakes his head while clenching his jaw. "Tell me, Ki. Did I make the wrong decision? "

Riki didn't answer. He remained silent. He couldn't speak, he couldn't believe what Sunghoon had just revealed to him. Yes, he knew someone threatened his friend, he knew that was the reason why Sunghoon ghosted someone.... But he didn't know who did it.

He didn't know it was Heeseung's ex.

Sunghoon let out a broken laugh. "I don't want this. I hate any of this— you have no fucking idea how disgusted I am with myself, Ki. You have no idea how disgusted I am that sometimes, I just want to fucking skin myself or just fucking disappear. But I can't. Dying isn't even a fucking option. "

"Do I deserve this? " Sunghoon's voice cracked. "Do I deserve to be used? Do I fucking deserve to be a sex doll to someone just to protect the person I love? "

Riki pity his friend. Seeing Sunghoon broken, he couldn't help but to pity him. "Why did you sacrifice yourself, Hoon? "

"Is that even a question, Ki? " Sunghoon threw the stick and stepped on it for the second time. "I loved Yeojin, I still do. That's why I've been enduring this shit for the past three years already."

"Ah, you must be thinking I should've stopped her, I should've let the authorities know within those years, don't you? "

Riki didn't answer. Because he knows his friend is right. He's thinking that, he just doesn't have the will to say it.

"I did, Ki. I tried putting a stop to it because I was so sick of it. " Sunghoon added. "But guess what? I know you've heard that sex scandal that surfaces before.... She was the one who leaked that. "

"But it got taken down, isn't? "

"It did, because I immediately get back to her. That was her warning. " He replied. "So please, Ki. Don't tell Heeseung, I dont think I still have energy left to deal with a mess.. "

"What about you? " Riki asked. "What about your situation? "

Sunghoon smiled. "It is what it is, Ki. "

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