nikozai (because it's nikozai)

late night cuddling

Dazai lies on the couch reading the same book as always. A good book can be read multiple times and still be good, he always says but no one agrees with him on this particular book. Suddenly he feels some extra weight on him. That's Nikolai. He just plopped down on Dazai.

Dazai raises his arms still holding the book. He didn't stop reading for even a second. He lets Nikolai locate himself on his body as he pleases and which the said man does quickly.

''This boring book about suicide again?'' Nikolai sighs. He could come up with a lot more entertaining ways to die than this stupid book. He even offered Dazai that he would write these ideas down for him. The one and only copy in the whole wide world! But Dazai is Dazai. He won't let go of that book.

"Mhm." Dazai mumbles what leads to Nikolai taking away the book and placing it on the coffee table nearby.

"How can you read this old, painfully boring book when the most fun and pretty man lies on top of you,'' he shakes his head. ''Truly pathetic." Dazai giggles and places his hands into Nikolai's hair. He slowly and gently unties his braid.

"Oh well, hello the most fun and pretty man of them all. What brings you here?''

Dazai likes playing with Gogol's hair. It's soft and long. It also smells good. It’s as if he was touching clouds but also as if he was touching the finest fabric of them all. And Dazai fancies a fine fabric, of course. Twirling it soothes him somehow. It's one of his favorite things to do.

And Nikolai? Of course he loves when his hair is being touched by someone. Especially by Dazai. He melts under his touch. If he was a cat, the purring would be heard already. It feels so nice, so relaxing, so cozy. He kisses Dazai's neck gently and nuzzles his face in the crook of it. Dazai is so comfortable and soft, and nice. Ah, if he only could, he would take naps while lying on the suicide enjoyer regularly.

"Hey Kolya, say, would you still love me if I was a worm?'' the brown-haired man muses out loud. Nikolai's head immediately goes up and he looks Dazai in the eyes. He's quiet for a second, tilting his head as if he was a confused dog. He's processing being called Kolya. As always. Dazai could call him that everytime and every single time Nikolai's brain would stop working for a bit. It's like his insides rearrange from that. He enjoys it very much though.

"Would you ever stop asking me that?" Nikolai purses his lips. He sounds annoyed. "The question is would you, as a worm, still be capable of loving me back. What if you fall in love with a different worm? Hmph. What if you, as a worm, get cut in half and the halves become full forms and then the halves fall in love with each other? Oh, that's even worse, I can't take it anymore! How could I ever compete with this wet boneless form of life?!'' he exclaims a little too loud and sighs theaterically. He slumps back on Dazai's body. Like a boneless form of life.

Nikolai is really the only person who can make Dazai laugh authentically. Maybe they could commit double suicide together. All these words and thoughts make Dazai feel butterflies in his stomach. Some kind of warmth fills every one bit of his body. That's an enjoyable feeling. And it's only possible with Nikolai. He strokes his head lovingly and Nikolai melts from the touch.

"Well, then the two of me would love you and you would have two me's. Plenty is no plague after all." he says as he cups Nikolai's cheeks and gives him a small kiss on the forehead. The white-haired man smiles widely from that.

"Agreed, so kiss me some more." And this time Nikolai receives a kiss on the lips. It feels as if electricity went through him. Each time they kiss. But now it doesn't last long. Just a quick peck followed by a loud 'ew' sound.

"Bitch, you taste awful!!!'' Dazai sticks his tongue out. The shivers going down his spine because of the bitter flavor.

"No, I don't? I just ate licorice." Nikolai is very much offended. How could one not like licorice? It's one of his favorite foods.

"Fuck off!" Dazai pushes the man off of him and imitates throwing up sounds. Nikolai is fast, though, and he finds his way back onto Dazai's body. "Oh no, no no no, come back when yo- Mmph?!" he got cut off by Nikolai's lips. He won't let him go so easily.

When Dazai eventually manages to pull back, he says "You know what, actually I would love you if you were a worm because worms don't eat this goop called licorice". Nikolai pouts to which Dazai just rolls his eyes and covers Nikolai's face with his hands. He pushes him slightly. He just loves teasing his partner very much.

"Mmm, you're the one who’s being a bitch right now." the white-haired man states resentfully and grabs one of the brunette's hands. He kisses his way from Dazai’s palm onto his lips but this time he isn't pushed away. They let themselves immerse in the kiss which doesn't taste awful to Dazai anymore. And the boring book is going to lay forgotten for the rest of night since Nikolai is going to ramble about dinosaurs and shit until he passes out, and Dazai’s going to listen to him and play with his hair until he passes out.