Katelyn's pov
It is a Saturday afternoon and i had planned to binge watch my favorite series on Brave however, i am currently at my grandmother's neighbour's gate with a tool box. Apparently, she told everyone that i am headed to university to persue mechanical engineering, giving an impression that i am very good with machines, and since i am around for the holiday i can fix up their stuff. Wow talk about grandma being an over achiever, through me. The sun is also extreemly hot out today and i am very thankful for sunscreen but i think i am going to pass out if they do not open the door soon. I ring the bell once more and this time around i hear some movement behind the gate and i am thankful to God.
The gate is opened by a very tall person i look up to say thankyou but i can not see his face due to the bright sun so i had to angle my face differently to see him and i am met with the bluest eyes in the universe it was scary. He had a buzz cut to him it was giving military vibes. He was wearing a face full of scorn making me feel anxious. "Who are you and why are you ringing the bell like you own this place?" I was stunned by the disrespect but it is nothing i have not been through before, people tend to misunderstand me a lot and just like the other times i blow it off because it is not worth it, "I am sorry, please excuse me but i was.. my grandma told me that ah, the lawn mower was broken i am here to fix it..." "How did she know that, how am i supposed to know that you are not some kind of thief that your not here to snoop around.." "Ooh would you leave the young lady alone Sari," and old woman's voice boomed from behind whom i persume to be Sari, as she came to view her long blond hair and similar blue eyes caught my attention. She must have been a catch in her days. "Ooh, you must be Katelyn, come on in sorry for the wait dear, come have some lemonade first." I don't like this, the feeling that someone owes me something, would she have offered me the lemonade if i was not inconvinienced, K, you are over thinking again.. maybe but i better turn down the offer. The old lady had turned to Sari and started scolding him saying that he should be a gentleman and stuff also introducing me as the neighbour's granddaughter and stuff ...in short this was getting tiering.
"I am sorry to interrupt, but could you show me to the lawnmower please.." "Won't you have some lemonade dear, i am sure you have been here for a while please?" she is being terribly nice but i don't want to feel like they are obliged to do something for me i want them to do it coz they want to does this, am i making sense? "Maybe next time," i say with all the politeness i could master she forfites, and asks Sari to take me to the shed to fix the lawn mower. when Sari motioned me forward is when my mind registered to take in the surrounding .... much like grandma's place this place had an extensive driveway and lush green well trimmed grass on either side of the driveway, their house was just at the edge of it and it was worthy of the title mansion.. in short this place was nothing sort of impressive.
Sari led me to the edge of the driveway, then we went around the back to a shed although, the place must have been bigger but i was not paying attention. I just wanted to finish this and go home. That is when i started thinking of what might be wrong with the mower, maybe some thing is stuck in one of the blades, no no, that is highly unlikely i mean they, and by they, i mean Sari could have fixed it easily right? mmh, maybe the batteries are dead, no easily fixable...i wonder what the problem might be, Sari opened the door to the shed and we walked in then i stood there and waited for him to bring the mower up front as i was still thinking about all the possible things that might be wrong with it. He then appeared after a short while carrying it, place it down and i got to it. He stood there pacing a while then cleared his throat, i took the que and looked up to him as i thought he was about to say something, "umm, i apologize for being such a dick to you, i should not have acted that way and...." i don't want to do this right now, i want to finish this and go home "it's fine" i said and went back to work he was quiet for a moment then said "no it's not, i was very mean to you, i am sorry ok" if his grandma had not come at that precise moment, he could have insulted me a bit more then slammed the door at my face right...K, stop overthinking this...no but i am right ya... but you just said its fine ... but its not it. is .not... why do people treat me this way, it is not like i am being paid for this... K, he is apologizing.... it is not like he wants to apologize, it is because he has to....STOP, if his grandma had not come he could have called the cops... K, your not being reasonable, STOP....why do you want to see the good in everyone they are just going to hurt you..."STOP," "what?" did i just....out loud? "no, no it is nothing, i said it is fine it happens all the time.." "what happens all the time..." "misunderstandings, huh, you are distracting my train of thought would you mind stepping out for a moment?" he gave a small smile, "i will be outside...". when he left i felt like i could finally breath.
Since the party, my anxiety attacks have been getting worse, my thoughts too loud, even short interactions with people made me anxious and overthink... i quickly took out my inhaler and sucked the air hard, like my life depended on it...it did, but i try not to tell myself that. And with the little outburst i just had, i don't want to overexert myself. Once i calmed down i sat down and started working on the mower.
author's note
in the scene where Katelyn is having an outburst, she is warring with various thoughts in here head one that is fear, the other one reason and the one saying stop in caps is Kate herself.. you will be seeing this a lot this is just to avoid confusion love you
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