IABY Prequel Road Trips

A New Server?!

It's been months.. A lot has changed. I didn't expect any of this to happen...Here we are left in confusion... It's the start of a new year, so why do I feel empty...? Why do I feel so confused...?

My mom had joined a server on Discord. She even got me to join it...Honestly, everything was going amazing, we made some pretty good friends on there, and everyone is pretty cool to talk to. I mean, with our group not being so active, a new group sounded cool, we still talk to our original group, though we're all still the mains. With our new group, we even got on some crucible. It's pretty fun. The leader of our group seems to enjoy crucible a lot. The group is like family to me. They're just as important to me as the mains... There was one point where me and mom had left the server, but the server leader convinced us to come back...We were both happy to be back, though. Everything was going well. I mean, there were a few drama incidents, but they got sorted, and everything became fine again. However, that was until one day...

In the not safe for work channel, there was a conversation happening about shipping me with Abyss. He's another member of the server, although we have a lot in common to the point where it's like we're literally the same person just genderbend, so it's fair enough that people would ship it. I mean, I didn't really think too much of it at first. That was until I found out that he actually liked me. I was left in confusion and shock. I mean, I barely spoke to the guy besides us agreeing with each other. Eventually, we had a conversation in the public chat channel. It went pretty well, although mom was showing me what they were talking about in the non kid friendly chat room. She showed me something about Abyss getting excited at me responding to his messages. I mean, it was kinda cute, I've never had anyone get excited over me messaging them before. I thought it was sweet. We eventually started talking in private messages so we don't entirely flood public channels. We've messaged each other every day since. It's been nice. He's a really cool guy, and he's super sweet... HoweverI felt like something or someone was missing...

One night, I was doing the new dungeon with my mom and Venus. It was great, although we didn't get to complete it. Mom was telling us about the conversation she was having with one of the server members about Abyss liking me and stuff and explaining all that to Venus.

In the chat party
Jennie: *explaining everything*
Venus: Damn, you move on fast..
Abbie's mind: I move on fast...?

Venus is what I'm missing... It's Venus. It'll always be Venus. That's how it works in this game of life...

For the rest of the chat party, Venus was acting really weird after that little conversation. I was getting worried about him. I mean..A part of me still loves Venus...It's that special something about him...I just..I couldn't imagine being with anyone else but him...Well that's what my past self would've said...I mean I guess it's still partly Accurate. Although Venus doesn't know that I still partly like him, which makes it awkward if I message him. I mean I guess I could, after all Venus is my friend and it's not like I'm actually dating anyone and it's not like I'm messing with anyone's feelings...The only one who's feelings I'm messing with is my very own. Yeah, that's right, sending myself into spirals over this whole situation. Later, after we attempted to do the dungeon, we went into the server voice chat. We managed to recruit Venus, Uncle Seth, and my dad to the server. I thought that was pretty cool. A whole group of us were in the voice channel, and people were coming and going. It was nice and peaceful.

The next day It was New Years Eve, which I had Gold and Scarlet over for that. It was fun, we went to the beach to do a countdown, mom joined the server voice channel which Abyss had joined, however the fireworks were very loud and scary. That part was definitely not pleasant. My sensory issues with flashing and loud noises did not enjoy that one bit.

Next thing you know, it was a new year. It means a new start and a new me. Maybe Abyss could be this new start...? Maybe I'm just overthinking everything.