Star And Mr. Moon - [When Silence Speaks Louder]

CHAPTER 35 - Unexpected Night?

"Nhu...can I kiss you instead?"

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As those words slipped from Zee's mouth, Chawarin was left speechless in his place. And when Chawarin stares into Zee's eyes, there's a spark there, his eyes are glistening, glassy or is it because his eyes just became watery?

And that just breaks Chawarin hearts seeing the sight in front of him. He was feeling sad because he really couldn't figure out what was wrong with Zee. Didn't even know what Zee felt right now as Zee is looking like he was about to cry. But here, it doesn't mean Chawarin didn't like the idea.

"Hahaha... I'm kidding, I'm kidding..."

When there is a long pause between them there, Zee finally said those words while letting out his dry laugh. But for some reason he's just looking much worse right now...and it's just pain Chawarin more when Zee lets out those fake laughs. It was as if...Zee has something to say, but is forced to not say anything. It was like he was not actually joking when he said he wanted a kiss, it was more like... as if he couldn't do that as it was a forbidden thing to do.

"Haa...it was already so late, you should go to sleep Nhu"

Just after saying that, Zee gives Chawarin a smile as if he was okay. But those smiles were obviously a forced one. Chawarin really didn't know what was making Zee act like this and anxious like this though. Like... What's stopping Zee from kissing him? Why hiding things from Chawarin when he actually knows Zee is not feeling well? Why suddenly said that he was just joking earlier, when Chawarin really didn't care and was totally fine if Zee really wanted to kiss him? Why do he lie?

It was dark in the room that time, as you know...it was night after all. But Chawarin swear he could still see Zee's expression that time, it was clear as day lights in his eyes even though, he just saw things faintly.

How Zee was actually looking disappointed while looking ahead of him, or how Zee bit the bottom of his lips as he fidgeted with his fingers... it's a pain to Chawarin when Zee lies like this...

And because of that, Chawarin decided to bring his hand to touch Zee's face and turn it to face himself. And when Chawarin meets those eyes, he sees it...a saddened eyes...that holds a thousand secrets that Chawarin didn't know. Chawarin cupped Zee's face in his small hands, slowly bringing his face closer to Zee, waiting if Zee would push him away or not.

Because if Zee is truly just joking around earlier, he would stop Chawarin action right now...and Chawarin is sure that Zee knows about what will happen next if he doesn't stop Chawarin now.

But Zee didn't budge from his place... instead he just stared into those brown eyes...as if he did, truly wants this to happen as well. And when their faces are this inch close, they stare into each other's eyes...and there they realize it...

This is what we are longing for.

And there Zee didn't wait any time longer, he moved his head forward as their lips finally touched each other. But it was not like before... it's not just a simple peck like they did before... Chawarin swears that this kisses sure feels different as he felt something was roaming inside his mouth.

But it doesn't mean he didn't like it. Whatever Zee did to him he would surely be okay with it, just like this moment...he just closed his eyes as he felt this burning sensation start to crawl up to his face. As his mouth was still attached with Zee, he grabbed Zee's broad shoulders as a support since he felt like he was about to fall backwards.

He also could feel Zee's warm hands grabbed hard onto his waist, and the other hand was in the back of his head as Zee pushed Chawarin's head forward to deepen the kisses. It was a passionate kiss with a hint of desperation, and he just melted on those kisses...Until at some point, Chawarin started to feel a little bit dizzy...but he didn't want this to end now... Chawarin didn't want to push Zee away.