The  Arrangement 

The accident

6 years in the past

God I hate this

This isn't where I should be, I should be out there fighting I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to be a wife.

I looked at the bright light of the Sun through the shoji walls. I want to get up, from this horrible darkness.I can't stand it. The usual comfort feeling of the Futon irritates me. The pain for the stab wounds won't allow me to get up

I slowly move my right arm to the limp of leg. There's nothing I could do now. I look at my right hand to see 3 my fingers missing. My father has a plan for me already. My use as a hashira is over. Why would the corps need a crippled woman? What is the use of myself now? I look up at the roof just thinking what do I do now? My father will probably end up marrying me off to a man. I can't believe it, 48 hours ago I was once one of the strongest pillars. Now I'm a crippled woman, who will be nothing but a wife.
Through my Chain of thought, I heard one of the maid slide one of the shoji walls

"My lady, you have a visitor "

I don't respond, must be the first suitor I think. I simply nod. I don't want to speak to her or anyone. I turn my head to block my face from the person who will walk in. I heard some one walk in and sit down on the wood floors.

"Ren are u alright?"

I quickly turn my head to the side in surprise

"Gyomei what are you doing here?" I ask him
I haven't seen him since that..day

"I wanted to speak with you, about your situation "

I roll my eye, why would he want to talk about this, he should already know..he was there

"About what?"
" your body is deeply Injured, it's so sad to see this sight" he began to cry as he clench's his pray beads.

"Gyomei, I'm fin-" I was cut off by him

" fine?! You are not fine. Your missing a leg and an eye! "He yells

"don't you think I know that?! Im useless!"

The yelling becomes quiet. He looks at me with the same expression as he always does, with pity. He's white glossy eyes become over filled with tears.

" what will you do about your position of hashira?"

" I'm retiring gyomei, the corps don't need a crippled woman as a pillar" I say. The silence was so thick,

" what are u going to do now?" He ask me, as if he think I'm going to say that I'm still helping the demon slayer corps

" I'm getting married off"gyomei eyes wide at the news.

" what do you mean"
" my father decided that I have to use unless he marrieds me off and create more demon slayers "
I say.

" are u happy with this news?" I scoff at this question ,for a big man he's quite dumb.
" no, do you think I'm having a choice, my father is picking the man who pays the most"
He stays quiet for a long while, as if he's thinking. if I didn't know I'm anything I would think his staring at me. A couple of minutes later of thinking, he gets up and leaves

As I watch him leave, I feel bad. I still remember the day he first came. He was so quiet and the only think that I remember thinking was god damn that boy is big. he was standing at the height of 7,2 and has to be more than 200 pound and he was interesting. Me and him became good friends when he first hashira. It's been barely a couple years  since we meet and I probably won't see him again. It was nice to see him one last time