Finding love in your twenty somethings

Chapter One

Relationships has never really been my thing,I love the concept of love but who has time for a relationship where infidelity and betrayal has now been normalized.My name is Samantha Ramos but everyone calls me Sam,This is certainly not my mindset because I enjoy being in relationships,I wish I didn't need a man for validation but I'm just a girl.I am the type of girl who has her replacement even before the relationships ends just so I can manage the heart break better,but it's not that easy to have back ups when you're 24 years old is it,it's not as easy as it was when u where 18 years old anyways.I just knew I was never going to settle for less so I decided to join this dating app while still being in my current relationship because the red flags in the relationship where becoming more obvious and I just didn't see that relationship benefiting me anymore,like I said I'm a sucker for love.
A little back story of my relationship life
I started dating this guy when I was in school,I was struggling with a toxic relationship and I was just about done with that relationship,me and my boyfriend had been together not officially but we had hooked up a couple of times but he still had a girl who he apparently had feelings for then and he was still trying to figure it out,I honestly didn't know he had that situation going on till I started hanging out with him and we started having sex but then I couldn't just back down because I also needed the distraction because I was going through issues of my own so we were kind of using each other has rebound except I really didn't know he had someone back then,he made it seem like it was just me and no one else and I believed him,if I had known I would have walked away.When I found out I did walk away but he kept coming back and I just kept indulging him and it almost became like hide and seek.We lived in the same apartment building and we saw eachother often,the person he had the situation with also lived in our apartment building and it was very awkward.He would sneak to my house and sneak out very early so nobody sees him and I didn't really care at that time.He would promise me stuffs and I'll end up seeing him get those stuffs for the girl, so it almost felt like all he wanted from me was sex but I still didn't mind.It continued like that for a while till I was tired and I decided to end everything.After ending things I went into major depression,I had ended things with my ex boyfriend because of him and now I was left with no one,well I had other guys that still wanted me but I wasn't interested in them,instead I was interested in a guy who wasn't in love with me. I started partying,drinking liquor and being wild just to try and forget the fact that I just got used hard but it wasn't working. I was willing to go back to just being used for sex if it means I'll get to have him again but I knew in the long run I'll regret it so I never really did that either,I just became best friends with Alcohol and I left it had that till one day,one of his friends came to my place and we just talked and next thing I see my boyfriend walk in moments later..I was so shocked..
Am I dreaming was all I thought about,is this real,what is he doing here?.