This is set in Scotland because that's where I stay so if you get confused Google it.
So the day I found out about his death was supposed to be happy because I was going on a trip but as soon as I got there it was ruined by the get go , my year head ill call him Mr mackie sat my year down for a assembly and we thought it would be about our trip to tinto but that quickly changed because at 8:45 on a Monday morning we would love to hear about someone's death.
So shortly after our year head told us what would happen on the trip our head teacher walked our and our head teacher only speeks to us if it's serious so we all went quiet now this is one of the only times during that day I can remember clear as day like it had just had it happen 5 minutes ago
"So today folks I have very sad news one of our s2 pupils corrie machantosh (fake name) has sadly passed away......."
After he said those words I don't know what he said after that because my ears started ringing so loud the only thing I could do is sit there but one thing I did see was my friend who was a seat away from me snap her head round to look at me with the most shocked face I've ever seen her make
"OMG Amy are you OK?!!"
I didn't answer her and all I felt was my eyes tear up, my lungs felt like they were being squashed and I couldn't hear anything I think in that moment my friend started shaking me but I don't remember that much .
After a few minutes we had to get registered but I couldn't move and my best friend grabbed my hand and as soon as she pulled my up I started historically crying to myself
For back story me and the boy who died went to primary together and we were good friends.
That's why my friend snaped her head round to look at me but that's all I can remember her saying/doing
In my class I have 3 friends and then all my mates from primary were in another class in those 3 girls thees one unptolerable little pick me bitch that follows me and my friends about
Personally I have no memory of this bit apparently both my friends do and so does my full s1 class (this was 2 years ago but I've had no one to talk to about this and it's the anniversary of his death and its crushing me) so apparently when I was historically crying Mrs came up to me and started asking if I was OK and if I knew him bla bla bla yk the drill and whilst she was IN THE MIDDLE OF ASKING ME thus pick me buts into our conversation and she starts crying to the teacher about how her dad's in the hospital and how I'm crying and it's making her cry I didn't really care because it too the attention off Me so I guess it's a win for me but it really pissed off my best friend.
When we went to the back of the line to be registered some of the popular girls from my class were asking I'd I was OK and my best mate answerd all the questions for me because I physically couldn't and I remember this bit
"(Popular girl 1)did - just start crying because Amy's crying?"
"(Me) idk I think her dad's in hospit-"
"(My best friend) yea she's such a pick me honestly if she wasn't crying she wouldn't be crying right now"
"(Popular girl 2) omg yea that what we thought aswell "
"(Popular girl 3) well hope you feel better"
Then we had to go to the busses and I think my tec teacher came up to me and said
"You ok? You can always talk to me"
But it's a bit fuzzy because I was silently crying to myself
A month later I had to watch somone really important to me get rolled away in a casket and I had bad thoughts like all the voices in my head during the funeral were it's your falt and DONT YOU DARE CRY PEOPLE ARE HURTING WAY MORE THAN YOU ARE DONT YOU FUCKING DARE SHEAD ONE TEAR and my to outher friends who were close to him were there aswell and we added up going back to school and walking silently about half way before my friend started laughing
*what the fuck we've just been to a funeral and your laughing why*
*oh I was just thinking about how funny he was *
I kinda laughed to
"Yea he was funny but im laughing kinda at how much he would have hated that photo"
"Phfft yea she would have HATED that"
After that we just started reminiscing about all the funny nick names he would come up with and how we had so many nick names for him *Harry Potter * because of his glasses and "princess poppy from trolls " because he dyed his hair red it faded to the colour of her hair and merge the two * princess Potter* that one was always funny so we just spoke about that sorta stuff and enjoyed unlocking all the forgotten moments and memories we had with him .
I'm going to end it there I hope you enjoyed my vent if you ever read it all the names were fake ones I came up with so yh bye .
