MADGYAL

Chapter 37: why wait?

Ehhh-meee- leeee-ohh- emilio

Vanessa
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"Baby? Wah you think about girls who go fifty fifty with them man? I asked Millie as I laid on his chest giving him dreamy eyes. This man is so fine lord have mercy. If pretty was a person😍 him nun prettier than me me a bad bitch though but jezazzzz him nice. I'm already thinking about our baby's name in the near. Emilio Emmerson.

He's going to be a junior and have his fathers name🥰 my man's name is so cute I tell him all the time. Emilio. I'll call my baby Ej.

Or lio? Leo?🥰🥰🥰

And if I have a daughter. I like Ella. I know it's basic but when I was little one night I dreamed that I had a daughter and her name was Ella and I was so connected to her and when I woke up I was crying and felt so hurt to see my baby not here with me. So if I have a girl I'm naming her Ella or Ellena.🥰 Ellena Skyler Emerson! Me and Millie already plan on having a lot of kids he wants 10 and I want at least 11 kids. A lot of Minnie us running around. I know i might seem like a very strick person but I'm a softy for kids.

Kids are soooooooooooooooooooooooooo cuteeeee!!!🥰 expecially babies they're so innocent and so sweet they just need the right parents to grow them right. Some parents don't deserve kids. Some parents grow their kids bad and teach them bad things and mistreat them and neglect them. But me... I'd never hurt a baby much less my baby.

Every baby is an angel from the gates of heaven a blessing in lives🥰 Millie knows how I feel about babies. He sees I get excited while watching the tv. I'm ready to be a mommyyyyy I'm ready for a little crying voice to boss me around for milk everyday for a couple months🥰

"You hear anything wah me just say? Millie asked me curiously. I snapped out of my thoughts as I giggled.

"No" I told him.

"Me say. Me think a man fi me the sole provider and work and protect and take care of them family and the woman. Me believe inna at least twenty fifty" Millie told me. I nodded.

"What yuh think? He asked me. I took a moment to think about my reply.

"Um me believe inna fifty fifty. Me think a woman and a man should work together and build up the family. And love and provide fi each other" I told him. He nodded.

"I think I should get a job Millie, because... me nuh like fi day here all the time and nahh do nothing and if we going to have a family-

He stopped me.

"Which family? Wah yaa talk bout he asked confused. I felt my stomach sank.

"Baby, we talk about having kids and building a family together and me think if we going to have so much kids to take care of us we need to start building and going fifty fifty" I told him. He looked at me with a chuckle in his face.

"Vanessa me nahh think bout kids right now. When me insinuate seh me wah kids wid yuh right now? He asked me.

"Me ask yuh recently and you say you would want at least 10 children" I told him confused.

"Yeah inna the future nuh right now-

"No wid me? I asked sitting up. My eyes welled up with tears. He tried to grab me but I shoved him away walking downstairs as he sat up trying to come towards me. I walked away going outside putting in my slippers and going up to the coconut trees that had stones outside and sitting under the emty banana tree in the breeze staring off into the gully below us.

Tears trailed my eyes I never let him saw them. He came on the outside back balcony calling me as I ignored him crying. I tucked my ear pods into my ears listening to music as I felt so embarrassed and stupid breaking down into tears. I hated how weak he was making me feel I felt so broken.