Oct 30th 2021
It's a beautiful day to survive in. The world is rising merrily and winter has arrived. My mind is clear as a crystal. Yet, I'd be utterly happy if this acid inside my throat and stomach could dissolve and die. I don't want to feel the urge to vomit again and again. I've been saying no to breakfast and coffee since I got up. It's dreadful to puke and feel OKAY about it. I don't feel OK about throwing it all up, but I think I feel much better after that last splash. It's so relieving and instantaneously satisfying. I don't like the idea of puking, I desperately hate it. But I don't want to feel like it all the time. It's harassing!! That's why threw up the last night's acid- it was yellow as a lemon. It tasted bitter as a bitter guard. It was not scary, but it was painful. I wanted to sip coffee, I said no to myself. I didn't want to throw up again. I don't want to complete the letters as well. Our teacher would be happy to read mine, because I write effectively. But I have only written the informal letter and teacher won't ask me to read it to her first. I might get a chance to read the formal letter which isn't even written in my mind!! That's sickening, but I don't feel like completing it (and I feel so much satisfied while writing this, as I am on a vacation, I don't feel doing anything productive). But today is my last day of college lectures and then the diwali vacation. I am looking forward for rotaract club etc. and I am happy!!
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