"Love Barrier" | Kim Mingyu

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Jia's POV

Throwing back*

Three days ago after the party, my father took me to the hospital immediately since my throat was swollen and difficult to breath from the allergic. For the first time he didn't scold nor blame my ignorance for doing questionable things, or he knew it wasn't me that fed myself something I know will cause negative reaction to my own body.

He didn't say anything but he was stressed out for some reasons. Sighed after sighed while rubbing his face silently and strangely, I wanted him to say something or just scold me rather than being quiet the whole ride.

When we got home he went straight to his study room and instead of going to my own, I followed him.

"It's pass midnight, you should go to sleep, Jia." He said as he took his seat on his desk chair and proceeded to read the documents papers right away like a workaholic he is.

"I got a 4.0 GPA, did the school email you my results yet?" He only nodded so I continue. "Next week will be the end of the term for my French class, do you want me to continue the mastery level or we should start learning another language?"

He put that paper down as he look straight at me, and with that gaze my veins started running through my body. I got chill.

"Then what do you want?" I shake my head at this question, I really don't know. "You don't know what you want?" He asked again.

"I—" I was lost in words because my brain was so blank no matter how much I tried to think about that simple decision. He kinda piss me off not gonna lie. "I was always told to walk in the map you draw, dad. I don't know the way out, I never got to choose."

A flashes of disappointment showed on his face but my father always good at hiding it. "That map is the road to the successor, I invest all my blood and sweat to pave that way for you so one day you can walk straight to the crown." He paused a few seconds before he continued, "I didn't have someone to show me directions as a kid so I'm trying my absolute best to give that to you, Jia. I only have you."

I understand him. He came from nothing, crawl from the bottom to where he is today but what he wants as a person doesn't necessarily apply to my need in life. I don't want to inherit the biggest real estate company in the country nor become the next powerful chairwoman. I just want to marry the person I love, build my own family and be a good mother because growing up that's the only things I can't have.

I almost couldn't believe where did I get the confidence to say that to him, at that moment I did realise that we both are no different, no matter how much I hate to accept it. I'm a spit of him and we just want what we couldn't have for our kids, (my future kids).

"That boy came to our house whenever I'm not around. I knew it, Jia, but as a father it killed me alive to acknowledge it." So he knew everything this whole time. "Being a coward father that I am, I closed one eye and let you be with that boy from the Kim family even though I have to risked everything for that. But—"

Hearing his almost-cracked voice has my heart drops from the 90th floor while my eyes started to get hotter and hotter from the tears fighting to come out. He was never look this weak, this hopeless.

"But are you happy?" He asked, "does he treats you like you're all he has? Because if that so, I'll let you be."

The 'are you happy?' From his lip hits different and as expected, I broke down. I dropped on my knees because my legs gave up. I felt bad for myself, I felt lost, I felt doubt and on top of that I felt sorry for my father who fought the battle alone secretly. I hated him, I hated that he's selfish but at the end of the day he's still a father and every father wants their daughter to be happy regardless.