(Kennie's pov)
I recently broke up with my girl friend, Andrea after she told me how she was confused about her sexuality and that she had to work on her body issues on her own. we ended in extremly good terms and are still friend but recently I've had a bigger issue indulging my heart and taking it through loops.
Andrea has an older brother called will and I've started going to the gym with him and getting food after, the issue is I think I've begun to fall for him when I realised it I didn't know what to think or what to say I never felt like this before especially about a man I was sure that I always like girls it was messing with my head I started to crave him, started to crave the small things like when he made eye contact with me or when his hand would briefly brush against mine when we swap equipment at the gym the more we hung out the more I realised just how much this man meant to me, a few weeks ago he cancelled our gym meeting because of school stuff and I'm going to shamefully admit I felt like crying I couldn't even imagine my life before will. I wonder what it would be like if he was mine, if he would softly hold me if when we went to the gym it would be more like a date then a meet up but atlast my heart may try to convince itself that it's meant to be and it will happen, my brain knows that will doesn't like me like that he probably doesn't even like men and if I try to tell him about how I feel that he'll think I'm repulsing I don't wanna ruin what little we have so I push down my feeling all the way to my feet and continue on as if I didn't crave him like my body craves oxygen
