girlicious

[ PROLOGUE ]

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We all have our own dreams, wishes, and fantasies. 

And in movies , they usually come true, and thats what gives you hope, 

Hope that ..

Some day, your dreams, wishes and fantasies will come true.

And listen to me when I say this, 

Never

have your hopes up too high, 

not everything goes as planned, and you need to know that.

trust me, all throughout my life, ive had many dreams, and yet, 16 years later

NON of them came true,

make no mistake..

im not just some edgy, depressed teen who wants attention from everyone,

i hate those kinds of people.

i am just a normal girl, who just happens to be pretty enough for the male social leverage. 

and like, all those sappy popular chicks talking to me,

which theyre just all so 

STUPID,

I dont get it, whats the difference between me, and someone whose just a few more pounds than me?

I dont get it, nor do I really care.

Im only a junior, with a shitty life,

my dads a cheating deadbeat, and my moms an alcoholic

both miserable, i know.

while me? 

 pretty much the same as them, but, just to an extent i guess..

but, what fucks with me the most is how my mother and I have so much similar trait with each-other. 

and i HATE it.

I hate her, and I hate how I look exactly like her.

i have her nose, lips, eyes EVERYTHING even her body

I want to love myself so much more but i feel like she's a piece of me, and if i love myself i must love her too

she's a shit mother, i don't understand why i have to look like a copy of her.

i wish i could just peel my whole face off and start a new, i hope in one of my next lives i'll be even more gorgeous, with a loving mother that i wouldn't mind looking like....

while my father?

I guess I can thank him for my pretty teeth, thats all hes good for.

Now, i know youre probably like "Okay, whatever what is this some pity party story about your life?"

First of all,

fuck you,

and second, my life isnt that bad, its just the people in it. 

But whatever, I want to have a good year for once, no boys, no drama, just me..and Mako.