One Shot Stories (Compilations)

One Shot Stories 1

“Til another eclipse, my dearest solace”

Have you ever tried entering a relationship, with the same gender? What does it looks like in crowd? How does it feel when you both girls? Have you wondered why girl relationship hits different yet the most heartbreaking one when breakups exist?

Actually, I can give the precise and just answers for that questions. Here's mine. Get ready for your tissues out there coz it's kinda sentimental and tragic story I'll be sharing.

It's my first time entering a relationship with the same gender. At first, it was great like you're having a sister, a mother and a bestie. In short, a soulmate. I don't know bakit nasagi sa isip kong makipag relation sa babae for all we know na it's against the law and the church for having same sex relationships but matigas ulo ko e haha.

I didn't find comfortable dating with a guy, dahil na rin siguro sa past traumas and experiences ko na masasaktan lang ako sa huli. And yes, it's hard dealing with opposite genders since dito tayo nagkakasala I mean we committed for someone who doesn't even know how to value and pursue us.

I even went out to the point na halos ma depressed ako sa kaiiyak sa isang lalaki that almost led me to suffer and killed myself. I became alone, I love to be alone but the thing na I questioned myself from my worth. What's wrong with me, am I not that enough, easy to get yet easy to get hurt. I wipe my own tears.

But when she came into my life, it was unexpected. I thought wala lang siya like basta lang siya sumulpot sa buhay ko but didn't noticed that I've fallen na pala. I hate girl relationships before, nasusuka ako tuwing may nakikita akong magkasamang magjowa na puro babae. Yuck! It's disgusting but when she came, ang pananaw ko sa relationship na ganyan biglang nagbago.

At first, masaya naman like we're acted like normal friends but low-key lovers pala. They almost thought we're best friends. Strangers kami before not until she confessed that she likes me. I don't know what to react that time because I'm still in the phase of healing traumas. She was there where everything seems not okay.

She became my safe place, my solace of heart, my heart flutters and she gave those butterflies in my stomach. It's her all this time I'm looking for someone who's gonna accept my flaws and imperfections. She's the one I'm looking for, the right one for me. We became close enough. I felt at ease when I'm with her. Of all the sudden, I think I'm ready to open my heart to love again, to a woman.

Hindi ako bisexual. I'm super straight but then later on, I realized that baliko pala ako kasi nagkakagusto na ako sa kapwa ko babae. Akala ko friendship lang kaya kong e reciprocate sa nararamdaman niya sa'kin. Ayoko kasi dumating sa point na porket sinaktan ako, ako naman ang mananakit. It's not on my vocabulary. Once I committed to love, I'll take it seriously no matter what.

As time passes by, the more na nagka conflict ang everything between us, the more she distance herself away from me without even saying anything. I wonder why. I got overthink on. Lutang na tulala ako sa situations namin. I keep gaslighting myself na baka busy lang talaga but no. Later on, I never got messages from her.

Is it because of our religion? Because of the gender? But why did she gave me those motives. Is it just an infatuation? But if that's the case then ba't pa siya dumating sa buhay ko kung ganito lang din naman? Why do we need to end up like this? We're okay pa naman the last few months. We supposed to celebrate our monthsarry. She left me unaware and not ready to accept what'll might happen.

Siya nag-aya sa'kin sa ganitong situation, na maging kami but I'm not aware that she's also the one leaving me untold. Ang sakit. I thought she's the one. Maybe this is the reason for me to break up the pageantry of love. I thought it could heal my traumas, mas lumala pala. I don't think I can forgive her for what she did. I won't forgive her, I swear. But even though, there's still in my part that I miss her.

It's really not that easy to heal from the wounds especially if you poured everything but seems not to be appreciated. It was my first heartbreak in a girl romance. She maybe mistook the platonic friendship as relationship. I was scared to confront her in the very first place. Naging tanga ako. Naniwala ako agad-agad sa mga compliments niya. I was speechless of what happened and still in the process of asking her the real reasons so I can be able to overcome and move forward and try to forget her.

It was unfair for my part. It's inhumane. My heart was that genuine, having this beautiful soul and softhearted that cries over small things doesn't deserve everything. I cared, loved and cherished everything but ended up being left behind and alone without being appreciated.

Yes, it's all wrong, no one deserves that, not even you, no one deserves that kind of treatment from someone that you thought were healing you, but she just put you back in a situation you already got out.

To this girl who shown me the definitions of love both pain and pleasure, I still treasured everything we shared. Love knows no gender. I still cared for you after breaking my heart into pieces. If one day, if everything's going to be alright I hope babalik tayo sa dati. We'll fix everything. I still love you. Take good care of yourself.

And for myself, we'll heal from this. Remind yourself that it was another phase in your life that you have to get through. Maybe we're still confused of what happened. It's a lesson learned. Maybe in the right time, when everything's settled enough, maybe that's the time for us to forgive, but never forget because sa ating dalawa, ako ang mas nasaktan sa nangyari. I can't let it go that easy. I still need an answer.

Thank you for building me again as the brave warrior even though I was still broke inside and for breaking me into pieces and for letting me get back into my traumas again. Still you, girlfriend.

We're like Sol and Luna, once in a blue to meet, til our next eclipses to reunite and bring our love together again, my dearest solace.

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