Hayden's choice

Chapter Seven

don't get me wrong i love andrew, more than anything in this world. but how could someone that loves you so much, be so okay with hurting you this bad? why doesn't he trust me? tonights the night, all my family plus his is coming over, so far evryone knows that i am with child, but tonight is the night everyone knows my choice. my decision, the decision i think is best for me and my baby,. me and andrew haven't really spoke, just about his parents coming over, that's all. he hasn't even apoligized, and i think that's what hurts me the most. "hayden! they're here!" my mom yells uo the stairs. tanners walks in and can tell the fear in my face. he hold me and tells me everything's gonna be okay. and i know right now, at this moment, that tanner is my rock. i brace my self to walk down the stair, as i reach the living room i see everyone sitting and standing around the couch. "hello everyone" i say. "hayden can we please talk." andrew whispers. "not now andrew i have to let everyone know my choice." angie, andrews mom walks up and grabs my hand, and carefully says. "hayden, no matter what we will be right here by your side. i promise. " here it goes... "okay everyone, as you know i am now almost four months, and i aware that i am now showing. so abortion is obviously out of the question" i can see everyones relief. "but my decision came down to keeping it or putting it up for adoption, i've went through all the pros in cons of each choice. but i decided that i can't let my baby grow up the way i did. don't get me wrong, i love my adopted mom and everything she's done for me, for taking me in., but i can't bring a baby in this. i have so much a head of me. i will not be like my birth mother. i can't do that. i love my baby more than anything in this world, which is why i'm making the decision for a adoption. a closed adoption. after my child reaches a certain age, she or he will recieve letters written by me and andrew. and i truly hope that everyone, even you and andrew, supports my decion. thank you all for coming." tanner walks up and squezzes my hand as everyone comes up to me one by one telling me how brave i am, for making such a bold decision. i begin to look around, and notice that andrew is no where to be found. ms angie tells me that andrew walked out for some air, but i know the truth, i know it wasn't air he needed. i look for my dad he just pats me on the back tells me i'm making the right choice, and after dinner everyone leaves. but still andrew is no where to be found. i wish i had him here, suporting me, helping me get through this. but i should have known things would be this way. my phone vibrates, and i look done and see a message from andrew. i open it. "hayden, you have been everything to me since i first met you. but you know damn well that this is my baby too. you know what i wanted to do. you know i wanted to keep it. i can't be apart of this anymore. i can't be apart of you. i'm done." i just sit there on my bed staring at my phone. i knew i was gonna have to do this alone. i knew i was. but that's okay, because i know for sure that i'm making the right decision now.