Save Her

Chapter Five: Falling.

At home, I sat in my room. Ezra was at work so I had nothing to do.

I kept thinking about mom again and nothing I did could stop the thoughts.

I miss her, it's all too much. I can't take it anymore.

I got up and went to grab the razor I hid. I pulled up my sleeve and held the razor against my wrist.

Not one, not two, but three deep cuts were now engraved on my wrist.

I tried to stop the blood that was dripping everywhere but I couldn't so I just bandaged my wrist.

I then grabbed cleaning supplies and cleaned up the blood stains on my floor.

'everything is falling again..' I thought to myself. I was falling back into depression.

I didn't want to hurt Ezra or tell Dad so I locked myself away.

When Ezra was done work he came over, he was probably worried because I havent texted him as usual.

He softly knocked on my door and I unlocked it. I then curled up on my bed.

"Love, what's wrong?" He asked, worry evident in his voice. I didn't want to worry him or hurt him.

So I made up an excuse.

"I just feel sick is all." I could tell by his energy that he wasn't going to believe me.

"I would like the truth, Amber." He said as he seen the razor on my dresser.

The room fell into silence, the only thing heard were the sobs that were coming out of my mouth.

Ezra didn't seem mad. He sat on my bed and held me close.

"Love, please stop hurting yourself." He said to me, sadness in his voice.

I couldn't answer him. All I could do was cry.

I felt bad for doing it again as I had promised him and dad that I wouldn't hurt myself.

I broke a promise. I can't believe I broke a promise.

Ezra noticed that I was getting lost in thought again, he held me tighter.

I could tell that he's scared of losing me.

Summers almost over, and I'll have to deal with the kids at school again.

But I'll try to push through, for mom.