Seek for the freedom

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As I sat on the open field cover in nothing but grass, and the beautiful flowers that smelled better than any fragrance filled my nose.

'Is this what freedom smells like'

I felt the suns heat kiss on my skin.
I no longer felt the coldness in my skin. This feeling, this feeling is familiar and new at the same time....I felt comfortable and ...safe.

'Is this what freedom feels like?'.

I closed my eyes to be left with the chirps that was made from the birds, the small noises from the insects, and the water that falls onto the rocks from the water fall that was a little bit south from where I was at.

'Is this what freedom sounds like?'
 
Wait

Where even am i?...

I slowly began to lay down, onto my right side, crushing the grass and the flowers that lay beneath me.
I then make eye contact to lifeless eyes.

They seem...
so dark.

'What happened to you"

The longer I look I start to feel uncomfortable with this feeling. They were so empty. It felt like they were sucking me in, trying to everything In me for them.

I slowly start to look down from the eyes onto the neck but if I were to keep looking down, I would see nothing but grass and flowers.
The heads and the neck was all that was left.

I look back into the eyes to see, they are almost the same eyes, that would stare at me full of hatred but these had no light.
It's not like they ever did.
" Mom?"

I start to feel a warm liquid on my hands.
I look down.
Blood.
No.
I did not.
I could never.
Suddenly, the field that was once filled with green grass and beautiful lily flowers started turning to yellow dull grass with no flowers at all the smell was gone.
It didn't smell like the most beautiful fragrance instead, it smell rotten.
The sun that was once up making the sky so bright was gone and replaced with the moon making the sky dark, but I could tell that's not only thing that changed.
I looked down to the head that was on the floor that was now  looking at me
and
speaking to me.

"Why? What did I do to deserve this?"
 
A lot

"I held you for 9 months, and this is the respect I get?"

I never held respect for you, mother or not.

"YOU BRAT, YOU UNGRATEFUL USLESS BRAT"

The head had started to grow hair that looks like long spider legs coming out of it it started to reach towards me by the second. I tried to run away, but it was almost as if I couldn't move. The hair had started to get closer and closer until it was  wrapped around my neck.
"YOU UNGRATEFUL BITCH, I SHOULD HAVE NEVER CLAIMED AND NASTY WHORE LIKE YOU"

The grip of the hair started to tighten and tighten until I start to feel-

"Get the fuck up"

"If you don't get up in the next ten fucking seconds I'm not driving you to school"

"Make that five seconds"

Weird ass dream.
And already a horrible morning.
Damn
"Five"
This is annoying

"Four"
I'm so tired

"Three"
But I would have to walk to school if I don't get up.

"Two"
Fuck this shit I'm sleeping in.

"One"
Finally

"One and a half"
What

"One and a quarter"
Yea there's no way I can go to sleep now.

" can you just wake-"
"I've been up this whole time I don't know if you can take a fucking hint but me not responding to you is me wanting to sleep in I don't gave a damn if I have to walk or not, so can you please get out so I can get at least 5 more minutes or sleep"

"If you were up this whole time you should have fucking said something instead of being an
ungrateful bitch"

What an amazing morning.
Every morning is something like this. Is always nagging at each other. But he was honestly the nicer one out of the both of him and my mom. My dad died and she soon became a bitch who soon meet her bitch ass boyfriend Ron. But he takes me to school sometimes.
And allows me to go out whenever I want to.
My mom would've never allowed it to happen.
So that's the only reason I'm letting him stay, even though he's kinda a creep.
I honestly didn't feel like walking and making this morning worse.
So I lied.
A I very much do give a damn.

I wonder if I can still get that ride....

"Okay sorry"
"Okay sorry? Is that all you are going t-"
"If I get ready within the next 10 minutes can I still get that ride?"
"Gosh really reader?"
"Yes Ron please I already said sorry on my behave"

It's not like he was in a rush or anything school starts at 9 and it's probably 8 something right now.
He doesn't go to work till 10 .
He has time.

"I guess so but you better hurry the fuck up, i want you out side and in the car by 8:35 no excuses"
"Yes sir"
"Cut that shit out"
"Yes sir"
"I'm not that fucking old, seriously reader cut that out and hurry up"

I was only joking but I guess he's having a shitty morning too.

I slightly laughed as I had started to get up following him to the door to lock it once he was gone.

Shitty ass morning.
I had already started to forget about the weird ass dream.

it still felt as if there was something heavy on my back.