𝐉𝐉 𝐌𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐘𝐧 𝐑𝐮𝐭𝐥𝐞𝐝𝐠𝐞

18

sorry for ghosting yall again 🤗🤗🤗

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i woke up in john b's bed.

what the actual fuck?

i rub my eyes and try to memorize my surroundings so i could see if anyone was in the room but God i'm so tired. i couldn't even keep my eyes open. my eyelids were so heavy. is it cold in here... or was it just me?

"why are you in my room?" the door opens. i couldn't even bring myself to bring my head up. i knew it was john b so i raised my arm and flipped him off. "why are you flipping me off? you're in my bed!" john b said sitting on the bed. "blah blah. let me sleep. get me jj." i groaned. "he's not here. but why are you in my be-" i cut him off "what do you mean he's not here? he barely knows anyone. where is he?" i said with concern in my voice.

"oh come on. you're acting like he's your babysitter who looks after you. don't worry, i'll look after you." john b said. i gave him a blank stare. "okay fine. he's at his dads. he was fixing his bik-" john b got cut off by my thoughts. his dads? what the actual fuck? "john b. what were you thinking?" i said groaning and getting up. i put my hair up and grab keys. i ran outside and i got into my car and quickly drove to luke's.

when i got there i got out the car and saw jj in the yard not around his dad. great. i walk up to him. i opened my mouth to speak but then i saw the cut on his face. he turned around and he jumped a little to surprise. he obviously didn't know i was there. "jj..." i mumble and i was about to put the hair out of his hair but he finches. i put my arm down knowing that he doesn't want to get touched right now so i respected it.

"why did you come here?" i ask. "i-i don't know.."
"well, it's okay if you don't know. i'm just glad you're safe now." i smiled. he put his tools in his tool box and wiped his hands with a rag. "i love you, jayj." i smiled. "i-i- i love you too." he said as he forced a smile.

"are you okay?" i asked. in his eyes, it showed worry. "i'm o-okay. don't worry."

"of course i'm going to worry! i care about you. what's wrong?" i really wanted to know.

"do you want to know what's wrong? fine. i'm scared!" jj admitted. scared? "scared..? scared of what exactly?"   "i-im scared of commitment. i'm scared of everything i do. i could mess up any second and i could lose you. you're the only girl i've ever loved. like actually. i look at you and i see myself. i look at you a-and i see... everything, yn. i'm scared. i don't want to lose you and it kills me to even think about it because you're the greatest thing in my life. i'd sacrifice everyone for you. just you." jj said with tears. it hurt me to see him like this.

"jayj, you know i love you very much. i may have loved people before in my life but not as much as i love you. you're everything to me. i'm so madly in love with you." i wipe the tears that were falling from his cheek. his face was cold and soft. it pained me to think of how much he went through. "can i hug yo-" he cuts me off by pulling me into his arms. he cried into my shoulder and laid his head in the crook of my neck. i pat his back and i run my hands through his hair. "it's okay. it's going to be just fine." i pat his back. "but what if it doesn't? what if i make another fucking mistake and break you again..?" jjs voice cracked. "i'll forgive you. over and over. i'll forgive you." i mumble into his neck. "why..." he whispered.

"because i absolutely love and adore you."

"i'll annoy you for sure." he mumbled and he chuckles. "that's alright with me. annoy me all you want. i'm not leaving your side. ever." i spoke smiling. "ever?" "ever."

"i'm sorry. it's just... i'm feeling so tired. i'm really falling apart. it just don't makes sense to me. i mean, why do you stick right next to me wherever i go? i mean, you cover for me, you love me, you care for me, when im sick... you actually stay with me and you don't care if you get sick, you're too good for me. i'm not even perfect." he chuckles with tears in his eyes. i slowly caress his cheek. "i mean, i love that about you." he chuckles at my words. "how could you love that? how could you love that i'm not p-perfect..?"

"it makes you, well... you. i love that you're not perfect. i don't need someone perfect. if i have someone perfect, that means i can't have their back and do mischief with them. and there's many other ways of how i love you not being perfect. you can talk to me if you're feeling down. okay? i will 𝖠𝗅𝗐𝖺𝗒𝗌 be here for you. when ever you feel down or whenever you want the pain to end." i smile. a pink color flushes on his cheeks. "well, when im with you... the pain already goes away. but when you leave, it comes back away and brings more. i fucking hate when you leave." he said pulling me into a hug. "i fucking love when i stay." i smile. he bends over and grabs my legs. he throws me over his shoulder and i scream while giggling. "jj! don't drop me. i swear t-" i get cut off by jj letting go of me for a quick second but before i hit the ground, he immediately picks me back up and carries me bridal style. i giggle as he kisses my cheek. "how are you so perfect? like teach me your wayssss." he smiles softly as he speaks. "I'm not perfect. but that's absolutely fine, we can be imperfect together. don't ever think you aren't enough. you're more than enough. and it pains me to see that you can't see that. most of that coming from your trauma from your dad and other stuff. i'm so so sorry." i caress his face.

"don't be sorry." jj whispers quietly before pulling me into a right embrace, resting his chin on my head. "there's just a gun pointing to my mental health." jj mumbles. when i hear his words, i wrap my arms around his neck and his arms drop to my waist, squeezing them gently and lightly.
"i love you, jj."

"i love you too, yn. more than anything."

"you're awesome." i mumble and he nibbles at my neck.

"you're even more awesome, mrs. maybank." jj mumbles, his breath on my neck. i smile at the nickname mrs maybank, i know that one day, if our relationship will survive this cruel generation, maybe... just maybe... i will be mrs maybank.

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The enddd??? (yes ☺️)

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