Vacation

{Season 3} Chapter 28

Justin's POV.

I was beyond over joyed at the results but something held me back completely. I'd been celebrating by now if it wasn't for Alexis's reaction. She hasn't done anything since I told her the news minutes ago. She had become frozen when the words rung her ears. It honestly scared me half to death that she didn't want this. I'd tried so much to get her to speak, I'd sat and thouht hard about what to do for her, but nothing worked. Do I tell her 'I'm was just kidding, Babe. Surprise!' No, I can't do that. I don't joke about pregnancy. I sighed, giving up on trying to make an idea pop in mind. After tugging my hair around for a minute or so I made my way back to the living room. It relieved oddly that I found Alexis in a new position. At least she wasn't in complete shock and depression. I kneeled by her, grasping her wrist to pry her hands from covering her face. She dropped them but avoided eye contact, fearing what I had in store for her to hear. "Alexis, what was that? You tell me you want a baby soon but when you find out you're having one you freak." She lifted her head, calmed by my soothing tone, and looked me in the eyes. Only then did I noticed the tear stains. "I-I don't know," her angelic voice shook and her plump lips quivered. "It's a huge shock to me and so sudden. I only just became used to the want of my own kid." "Do you still want to be a mother?" "Why are you asking that after I've just told you that?" "Because you're confusing me. You say you want a child but then you become shocked. You're giving me mixed answers." "I want a kid, yes. But I want more time to be young and free." "Well that's over. You have to deal with this now. We're having a baby." Again she buried her face in her palms and sobbed. Maybe that was too harsh. "Baby, I'm sorry." I shifted to my knees and circled her in a hug. "I'm already a horrible mother." "No! No, don't you dare say that." "It's true. I basically said I don't want my kid. A good parent doesn't say that." "You didn't say that, you said you do want our baby but you just want a little more time before it happens. There's a difference." "I don't deserve a child." "Stop, lies are only coming out your mouth right now." "But, Justin.." "Shh, Love. If you love me you'll quit." And she did. It took the rest of the day but I finally got her to calm down and talk the situation out. I got her to think straight and see the truth and realize everything. It made a true difference in her mood and thoughts. Thankfully it was a great turn out. The only problem left was she became afraid that the test was wrong. She did only take one test and one can have the wrong answer when dealing with pregnancy test you take alone. It was mixed clues as of to rather she was pregnant or not. She was throwing up on the boat but not after we got off. But it was morning when she had that incident so it was possibly morning sickness. We've also made love a lot. Yet she doesn't have a bump to hint the situation. It downed me with those thoughts but I stayed positive and prayed she contained our child. I called a nearby hospital from the phone book and set up the quickest appointment to have Alexis tested since we both had current doubts. After all that we just laid in peace for the night and kept a bit of distance.

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Reaching for the knob I watched the signal and pulled the door open. The signal was Alexis's nod. No words. Just gestures and actions. I'm honestly terrified of this pregnancy problem affecting our marriage. The emotions of it and all are changing and so are the results. When one thing changes so does another. You can't have everything perfect, but other couples have children when they want so why can't we? It was obvious in Alexis's new moods and rare expressions that she was growing in liking of the idea of being pregnant. It's not fair. When she doesn't want it quite yet it's said that she is. When she does want it it's said that she may not be. I closed the locked door after stepping into the hall and linked my fingers with hers. I was going to be there for her through anything and everything. I really need to relax my brain. I've been over thinking and thinking too much. Isn't that evidently clear?

"Think positive." I directed when feeling the shakiness of her hand. She looked up for a second and nodded. Her knee still bounced with impatience as we sat for the longest time and waited on the doctor. It was another hour of torture until we were called back and reserved to a room once and for all. I lifted Alexis onto the bed and faced her, never taking my hands off her. Who knows how long we would have to sit and wait for a doctor to come in and get down to the point. "You okay do far?" I already knew the answer she would give me but I asked anyway. With a slight nod she clinched my shirt and kept me in front of her, my arms loosely holding her. I've never seen her like this; trembling in fear. "Baby," Knowing what I wanted her to do, she gazed into my orbs. "It will all be okay. If you aren't pregnant then we can try until it works, okay? Don't be scared." "I just want it to be true now. Last night reality finally sunk in and I know what I want. I want to have kids now." I couldn't help but let the smile appear on my face. "That's great, Sweetheart. I'm glad everything is settled now and either way we can work this out. I just want you to fully calm down and relax before something happens to you. You really are beyond nervous." "I'm sorry." "You don't have to apologize, Silly." She giggled and looked over my shoulder. I stepped away hearing the doctor enter but of course I kept an arm around her back. Now we start the process. "Morning, Mr. and Mrs. Bieber." "Morning." "I hear you want to know if a baby is held in that stomach of yours, huh?" "Yes, Sir." "Alright. Well, Alexis, you can go back with Ms. Plump and take the test while I chat with your husband." I moved out the way as she hopped off the bed and nervously looked at me. I smiled reassuringly at her innocence and kissed her head comfortingly. When the nurse and her exited the doctor turned to me and crossed his arms. He was strangely creeping out but then again he is elderly. "Has she taken any regular pregnancy test?" "She took one last night." "The result?" "Positive. But the signs are confusing." "How so?" "She had sickness on a boat ride but not afterwards. The thing about that is the trip was in the morning so I thought maybe it was morning sickness." "Is she usually sick on a boat?" "I don't actually know." "Alright. Chances are chances so we'll see how things turn out. Do you by chance know if she's missed her monthly event?" "She just had it about a week or two ago I believe." "When was he last time intercourse happened?" "Just a few days ago." "How long before that happened?" "Uh.. Not that long I would say." "Mr. Bieber, how often did it occur within the past two months?" "Four to five times." "You were indeed right. The signs are confusing. The only way of telling is waiting nine months or getting the result of this test." I nodded and took a seat in a empty chair, my hands runnin through my hair and propping my head up under my chin. I want this day to be over with already. Minutes later murmuring occurred and a hand rubbed my back. I looked up to see Alexis eying the doctor and nurse before looking down at me and smiling weakly. I took her hand in mine and squeezed, lingering my lips on the skin. "Just a few minutes and we'll have your results." I nodded to the doctor and watched his exit the room. Sighing, I pulled Alexis down on my lap and nuzzled into her. "I want this day to end." "Calm down, it'll be fine." "I am calm." "M'kay." She patted my head, her fingers ruffling my hair afterwards. I love when she does that, it's calming for me. "What do you think will happen?" She suddenly wondered. "I'm not sure. If its not what we want and you don't want to be here then we can fly home early and start trying for better news." "Mrs. Bieber, can you take one more test? It's a different one this time." We both turned to the nurse and my heart skipped a beat. Something's not right. Without a word Alexis stood and followed her out.

"What's going on?" I immediately demanded to know when the doctor stepped in. "There were problems with the test. Nurses are going in and doing a few test, looking through a camera at the insides of your wife's stomach." "How can there be a problem?" "I do not have the rights to discuss that with you." "She's my wife!" "Yes, but it's still her body and her choice of you learning the information."

After an eternity I saw her stumble into the room, only to witness her break down into tears a second later. What happened that they won't tell me? It's eating alive not knowing. I quickly kneeled by Alexis and pulled her into me. "What happened? Please just tell me now." "You'll d-divorce me." She shook her head roughly. "No, Baby, no. I'm never divorcing you. You're the love of my life. Please let me know what went on back there. They won't tell me anything except something went wrong with the test." Alexis sat back out of my arms and wiped her tears. She caught her breath and stopped her sobs before finally looking me in the eye and explaining. "They did like a sonogram after this other test that I don't know what went on. They kind of x-rayed my stomach I guess. B-but," I reached out, runnin her arm as her lips began trembling. "They didn't find a wob of a baby. They found something else." "What do you mean something else?" "Justin, I-I can't have kids."

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