JOURNEY FROM YOU TO US

✦ | CHAPTER 43 | ✦

Karthik's POV (I want to run a few chapters on Karthik's POV only) 

I let her sleep peacefully for more time. I am at fault now. I am surely not bipolar but I was really going away from emotional problems. Maybe I never had any before or experienced any. Atha and Mavayya Garu are on their flight to Bangalore. I didn't want to wake them up and neither miss to pick them up. I thought of booking a taxi for them. I get a call from Gokul. I talked with all four of my people. I didn't want to make them sad anymore. So I diverted the call and called only Gokul. He said he would book a cab for them. 

I went to the kitechen to prepare something for her and them as well. She is weak and pale. Too fragile to handle her in this situation, I would have died in pain both emotional and physical, if I was in her place. She is just a gem. I don't know whether it was a girl or a boy, but I will always remember them deep in my heart. 

Now we won't try much until she wants to have a child. I don't want her to go through this again, I won't be able to handle her again if it was to loose once more. I wiped my slowly falling tears. I am not weak but these things made both of us as fragile as glass, we could break any moment if not handled with care. 

I was about to pour the sambar into a bowl when I got a call name flashing with Mavayya Garu. I think they might have reached. I talked to him and communicated and made a connection between him and the driver. Now they were on their way. I don't know how sad my parents and her parents would have felt when they got the news about Vennela.

 For my parents, and in our little family she is the first girl. Somewhere my heart knew it would've been a girl. What mistakes did we commit in our past lives tht god has snatched our happiness? He gives one and takes one. Is this really correct? She prays to him almost every day, every day other than her month time. And he gave this. Is my part also left and beg his forgiveness for any of my ill activities which I think I never committed? 

"Karthik, Karthik, Kaaaarrrtthhikkkk" she screams from the bedroom and I ran. She was scratching her head and other hand on her belly. "Karthik it pains, it's paining a lot Karthik" She engulfed herself in my arms. I put the spatula on the bedside table. I couldn't see her like this. I have no words to say. I lay on the bed and let her sleep on my thighs, I caressed her belly. She turned to her right and shouted with pain, "Ahhhhh Karthik" I couldn't see her in this stage at all. 

I tried to coo her and she slowly drifted into sleep again. I asked them to give me a work-from-home today to manage things, I explained my situation. He showed me his grief. Few talks about the ongoing project and I went to turn off the idli. Meanwhile, I got a call from Mavayya Garu that they actually are down. I turned off the gas stove and locked the door. 

I saw them, they were sad. More than sad, a grief that they couldn't explain through words. I hugged them as soon as they came out of the car. "Sir, Gokul sir paid the amount," the driver said. I said ok. I lead them to our flat. "Vennela?" they asked me. 

I held up my tears and tried to not tear myself more with sobs. "Padukundhi attha," I said. (She is sleeping). It was just trolleys so I put them in Mom's and Dad's room. And I went to the Kitchen to get them coffee. We all were silent. In the living room. They were staring at our photo frames and looking at the interiors which were changed by her only. 

"Nanna, please don't be sad. It's really heartbreaking for you and for her also. Please stay strong during these times. It's really......—" he sniffles and takes a heavy breath. (dear son) 

He assured me and gave me strength with some words but how long would I be able to carry? 

"Mavayya, I made breakfast for you both. Would you people like to have?" I asked them