I Don't Hate Us! | O. Tooru

prologue | first person; tohru's pov.

"Tooru.. I don't know what to do! He- he doesn't have enough time for me anymore!" I spoke out, drunk and dizzy from all the alcohol I just downed.

"Isn't that what you said last time? I already told you what I had to say about it: just break up," He advised me to do so for what seemed like the thousandth time.

It's always been like this. I cry over my boyfriend, I ignore him for a night and come crying to my bestfriend. It's an endless cycle, really.

"It's not that hard! You wouldn't understand! You've never dated!" I shouted back at him. I wanted to cut things off with Keiji, seriously, I really wanted to. But everytime I finally face him, all my anger just melts away and all I want to do is to be in his arms again.

"Then don't come crying to me for advice, damn it!" I giggle at his frustration. He's only ever like this with me.

"You're cute when you're mad," I laughed while he just stared at me. Did I say something wrong? It's true though. He reminds me of a chihuahua, those teacup sized ones.

"Don't.. Don't say things you don't mean," He stuttered. Was I woozy or was he turning red? "C'mon, let's get you home."

"Okay, cutie!" We then proceeded to go outside. Tooru guided me in my drunk state by placing my arm around his shoulders and him grabbing my waist. Before we could get far, I felt my phone ringing.

"Tooru, I need to get this," I said between hiccups. The alcohol's really starting to kick in now.

I look to see who's calling me and it turned out to be Keiji. Before I could answer him, my bestfriend saw the caller's name and snatched my phone away from me.

"Hey! What was that for?!" I protested.

"You come crying to me about Akaashi and now you're going to answer him like nothing happened?" He complained as he pressed the red button on my phone.

"Hey.. I didn't come crying to you! We were just supposed to drink and I happened to have opened up Keiji, that's all! What's it to you anyways?!" If I wasn't irritated because of my boyfriend before, I'm for sure irritated because of my bestfriend now.

"Because I like you, Tohru."

The fuck?

"H-hey! Um, Oikawa... that's not- You're just drunk!" Please, don't do this to me Tooru. Don't ruin this.

"I may have drank a few, but I'm not drunk. I like you," He spat out, again. This time, with more clarity in his tone.

"..I.. I'm going to video you right now so you can't deny shit when you're sober in the morning!" I threatened him so he'd take back his words. To my surprise, he didn't waver when I took back my phone and pointed the camera at him.

"Tohru Morinaga.. I really, really, and I mean really like you!"

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The morning came and I felt like I've been ran over by a bus. These hungovers didn't seem to get better no matter how much I've been drinking.

I twist and turn in my bed in order to get more sleep.

... I can't.

Instead, I reach for my phone to check what time it is. I was expecting to see around twelve in the afternoon,  but instead I'm greeted with five in the morning. Amazing how my body could still remember I have classes to attend despite being abused with alcohol.

My phone opened to reveal my gallery. I wonder why. I then pressed on the latest video to shake my brain into remembering what happened last night.

"Tohru Morinaga... I really-"

I threw my phone and smashed it into a million pieces.

"Okay, so what we're not gonna do is remember what happened," Because of the loud crash, one of dad's maids made it's way to my room.

"Young miss? Is everything okay?"

"Oh- um, yeah, it's fine. But can I ask you a favor?"

"Anything, young miss."

"Could you buy me a new phone real quick? Mine's been.. in an accident. Just tell dad that I owe him," With that, the maid replied obediently and probably went on her way to dad's office.

He's never had much time for me, but hey, atleast he cares for me cash-wise. That was probably one of the reasons why I've been so clingy towards Tooru the past few years. He brought me comfort that I needed in a friend. In a family member, even.

"Tooru...

Why did you have to ruin everything?"