I wish I didn't have a heart

"tell me you hate me ill hear i love u"

I hate the way it feels to love someone... they take all my energy and make me feel so small and unloved and that's not their fault, it's mine.
I'm too intense, I give them my all in such little time they don't know what to do. The sad thing is I don't love people expecting them to love me back, in fact I don't even care if they even like me. I just want someone to LET me love THEM and take care of THEM. But also I wish someone can accept me for who I am, I want someone who doesn't think I'm crazy for having high emotions, I just want someone to be there, they don't have to be committed to me at all and I don't care if they are just using me to make themselves feel better, as long as they stay... as long as they don't leave me.
I'll do whatever for the people I love
I'll go to them whenever they need me
I'll say i love them even if they say they hate me...
and that's why I hate having a heart, I hate knowing what it's like to love someone. I wish I had to emotions at all.