~ Rafes Pov ~
I grabbed my phone, there was a notification from my sister.
*image sent by Wheeze🙄*
Wheeze🙄: aw u two look so cute tg
Rafe: Wheezie wtf is this??
Wheeze🙄: what? i took a pic of u two last night i thought it was cute
Rafe: delete that now
Wheeze🙄: no
Rafe: don't make me do it myself
Wheeze🙄: but whyy u both look so cute tg i think u should ask her out
Rafe: piss off i don't like her
Wheeze🙄: yhyh i see the way u act around her
Rafe: stfu
~later in the day~
"Wheezieee" i smile walking over
"i'm so excited y/n" "Can i please have alcohol tonight, pleaseeee, just a bit" She begged trying her best to convince me.
"i don't know wheeze, you're not old enough just yet"
"please y/n, just this one time. I won't tell anyone"
"I think you should let Rafe decide, he is your brother and i can't give you alcohol. I'll help you try to convince him though?"
"Okayy thank you" She smiles skipping away
Her party is only a few hours from now. All of her friends are coming there'll be loads gathered around the bottom of the house and garden.
It won't just be me and Rafe as the only adults there though of course. Ward would never let that happen. He's hired people to look after the house and even Wheezie at times so they'll be there keeping watch.
I made my way over to Rafes door knocking on it to ask about the alcohol.
"Go away" Rafe yells
"It's y/n"
"i don't care, did you not hear me? i said go away"
Yep that's the Rafe i know. Moody as always.
"Rafe it's literally about your sisters party"
He comes to the door and answers with a angered what. "She wants to know if she can have alcohol just for tonight, she said she's not gonna tell anyone about it, she just wants to try it and all that. What do you say?"
"fine whatever i don't care" he replies slamming the door in my face. "Alright damn" i mumbled stepping back, wiping the hair off of my face.
I don't know what the fuck his problem is.
~ hours go by ~
At this point the whole house was filled of Wheezies friends and ppl they've invited.
I could barely get through.
I decided go search for Rafe because i had no one else and i knew he'd be in his room somewhere.
That's when i got to his door.
I was gonna knock but i heard some sort of punching noises. Almost like he was punching the walls?
Surely not.
I shout his name louder than normal due to the music and all the kids screaming. Even though it was about ten at night. (i'm sure the neighbours love us for this)
"Rafe!" i continued to knock.
For the fourth time i shouted but there was still no answer from him.
"Rafe im not stupid i know your in here" i yell for the final time opening the door as i did.
"Rafe?" my tone lowered as i saw him.
He was sat on the floor with his head in his hands leant against the bed. His knuckles were bloody with sniffling noises coming from under his hands.
"Get out y/n" His voice cracked sounding all shaky.
I felt so bad. I've never seen Rafe like this, ever. And i never thought i would. He's one of those people who barely show emotion, always hiding it away so no one sees.
"Are you okay?" I ask closing the door behind me so i could come closer to him.
He didn't even answer my question he just sat there shaking his head. Which was still not lifted from his hands. He was literally almost curled up on the floor.
I drop myself besides him putting my hand on his back rubbing it, "Rafe what's wrong?"
"Get out my room y/n i'm being serious i don't want you in here" He said trying to shout but instead began crying.
I know for a fact no matter what he says i'm not leaving. I don't even care who it is, if i see someone crying or anything like that i'm not leaving them until i know they are okay.
Pulling him into me his arms wrap around my body as i hug him tight. "it's okay" my voice softens as i listen to him cry. "no it's not" he mumbles still holding on to me.
"Tell me what's wrong"
"no, I can't y/n i can't tell anyone." he lifts his head off me revealing his red puffed eyes. There was tears all over his face.
"It's okay, you don't have too but i'm always here if you change your mind okay?"
He nods turning around his hands to look at his knuckles, shaking them from the stinging/pain.
"Let me clean them for you" i look up to him getting myself to stand.
He follows along and i take him to the bathroom.
There was no one upstairs so no one saw how he looked.
We got to the bathroom and i locked the door behind us getting him to sit on the toilet lid.
There wasn't much in there, just towels and bandages. But that's really all we need.
I brought the wet cloth to his hand grabbing it so i could wipe.
He was hissing a bit trying to pull away.
"keep still please"
"i can't it fucking stings"
"It's fine i'm nearly done anyways"
I finish cleaning his hand so i grab the bandages.
"Is this okay?" i look seeing him stare straight into me whilst nodding.
I giggle to myself a little finishing up the bandages.
"You're so pretty you know that right?" He looks to me with a serious face
My heart literally went. With feelings in my stomach going everywhere. I've never felt that way before.
"mhm you're so handsome" i smile watching him stand up to pull me closer.
That's when he slowly leant down to kiss me.
It wasn't a short kiss either it was long and slow, to be honest with you i didn't want it to end.
His body was pressed against mine with his hands on my hips slowly pulling away.
"i've always wanted to do that with you" he says
"no you haven't, you basically hated me the other week" I giggle
"Trust me i've never hated you y/n, even if i've been acting like it. I thought you was beautiful the minute i first saw you" He says, hands still on my hips.
"So why do you act like that?" i question him
"I don't want you to like me y/n, it's not safe for you to be around me."
"why?"
"It doesn't matter, you've just got to listen to me. And don't tell anyone about tonight please."
"oh okay" i nod my head leaving the bathroom.
"Are you still coming? It is Wheezies party"
"i'll come down later"
~ hour goes by ~
Rafe made his way down the stairs with alcohol bottles held in his hand.
"Here wheezie, your birthday present from me" He stretches his arm passing her a bottle
"Rafe that's too much what are you doing, she's only thirteen??"
"She'll be fine, it's what she wanted right?" His head turns to her as she nods, "yeah thank you rafe" She smiles walking off with the bottle
"You can't let her have all that, she's only a child she doesn't know what she's doing." I lightly push his arm making him for some reason nearly fall over
"Don't fucking touch me" He pushes past leaving the house
