HZ17

Reiner.

Kelsey POV
; His name was Reiner. We were together for a year and 4 months before it all happened. He was my best friend; we've known each other since middle school and we told each other pretty much everything. He was by my side ever since everyone else left. Due to our extreme awkwardness, we've never spoken a lot in school. He was a guy of many fears and losing me used to be one of them.
It happened on the 23rd of April. Well, it started off pretty early, but it was that particular day where all the lies i've told myself to feel better for nearly an entire month crashed down on me. For a whole month i felt that we were drifting apart and on the day when i couldn't hold all my bottled feelings anymore i told him how i felt, hoping for reassurance. But it just didn't work out. "I just don't know anymore; this confuses me and i just don't want to be with you."
Being someone constantly tired and usually introverted, my lack of appetite and sleep for weeks after the break up all seemed normal; but the thing was that, when i was with him, i never had to deal with this. He brought me out of my horrible times and a month before i opened up to him, i was still depressed. I never had anyone with me. I was "that girl" whom almost nobody knew existed. Yeah, maybe nobody had a burning hatred for me, but neither did anyone really like me. I longed for a change and someone special showed me this whole new world that i've never been to before. I was thankful to have our little infinite, or so i thought it was.
Before Ma passed away, she told me to always love myself. Sorry, Ma, it has been 11 years and there hasn't really been a point where i cared about myself so much yet. All i did was put others before myself and i guess it was the constant thought that i would always be there that drove them to boredom and soon, away. Reiner told me that he loved me, and that i was the best that had ever happened to him. But i guess people grow apart, it's not his fault that i break down on the bathroom floor every now and then, right?

Reiner POV
; The time wasn't right. I loved her, or i hope i did, but the problems we faced won't allow it, but my circumstances won't allow i, and i don't want to be selfish and have to let her go through so much. Hope you're doing well, Kels.

[remaining story in Kelsey POV]
To get a little more in depth, my name is Kelsey; i just graduated and that means that i would be seeing Reiner a lot lesser, which is a good thing i guess. If i never get to see him again, it would be a lot easier to say that i don't miss him. Here in my city, we have major exams at the end of middle school to determine which course you would take. The results, however, are a 100% confidential, so i still do not know what i would be studying for the next 3 to 4 years of my life. I have no goals, nor do i have any views of what i would be doing in the future.
Currently, i live with my Aunt; i don't have any siblings and Aunt basically works outdoors for the entire day. Perhaps the lack of people who care about me ever since i was young was the very reason why i have problems speaking to people. Until i was 5 i still had Ma, but she passed away due to illnesses and since then i've been living with someone whom i probably only see once a week. Aunt works as a motivational speaker, which is pretty ironic as the only person living with her is an awkward and lonely teenager. My dad left when i was 3, and up till today i still do not know the reason, but i know that Ma cried for nearly 4 weeks straight every time she showered, since Dad left. My best friend from when i was 11 moved away when i was 13, and since then i was pretty lonely until i was 15 and met Reiner; who then left when i was 16.
You could say i lived a pretty pathetic life for that i've only up to 16 years and there are already 4 people who left me in total. Now i'm back again with my broken pieces, sitting here in my bedroom, and all i could hear is the fan blowing and, occasionally, cars outside on the road, with random people inside who are living their lives which are probably better than mine.
Well, maybe the new school that i would be allocated in would bring a change. Our school gathers teachers' comments and feedback, followed by endless discussions, to see which schools each student goes to.
I still remember that when i was still together with Reiner whenever we spoke about this, he would tell me that if we went to different schools he would write in to request to go to the same school as me. I wish i still had someone whom i hope i could go to the same school with.
But then again, in hopes of a new beginning, i would do better without that certain someone. Cheers to a great new start, hopefully there would be more people in my life and less tears or Tumblr scrolling.