I HATE MY DAD SO FUCKIN' MUCH!!!
So my aunt S and a friend of my dad and mom Ch came over to visit for a bit and not too long ago left right? my dad comes out and starts yelling at us saying he doesn't like having people over and doesn't want people over ever again during his work hours and my mom said " Why? They didn't bother you, no one did! " And he started ranting on saying how it just does and that it's annoying and so on..... It got to the point my sister got so stressed she started cursing my dad out and he started yelling at her telling her to get the fuck out and that she has no right talking to him like that and my mom started screaming at him but I couldn't hear because people were screaming over top of one another and my sister started crying, I was upstairs because I didn't want to be apart of this and my sister started saying how she didn't want to hear it anymore and that she was sick and tired of them arguing and fighting almost all the time and she eventually came upstairs into my room while our parents kept fighting....... My dad said he does 'everything' for us when all he does is work a job because my mom can't she has such a hard time doing so and she already had to go out to the store, get clothes, drive me and my sister to school, go to the laundry-mat, and so on...... While my sister cried I stayed silent, I'm always so scared in these situations and I shut my door so it'd muffled the screaming and I tried watching a video to block out the arguing but it's no use..... They're still arguing and I'm so ready to punch the shit out of my dad...... Always using his heart attack as an excuse for his behavior......... And he wonders why no one likes him, just look at how he treats us, talks to us, call me, my sister, and my mom useless, calling me and my sister freeloaders and it's so stressful........ I can't keep doing this........ I want to kill myself so badly.. I hate him........ I HATE HIM............. I can't deal with this, I can't handle it....... Please end my suffering.. end me........ I'm about to have a mental breakdown........... I'm trying not to cry.. I'm trying not to make a sound.. Please............... Mama, I hope you're okay.......... Sister I hope you're okay....... I'm not sure if I will be though.. Father, rot in hell..
Oh..... I forgot to mention......... He'll probably slap me or smack me or bash my head against a wall or something if I dare speak up....... He had a tendency to sometimes be violent..............
