We had been friends since we were preteens. One day, while I was on the swings, she came up to me. We played outside and hardly ever spent time away from each other from that point on.
Being the kids we were, we talked about typical crushes, but when the topic was brought up, I, for some reason, never found interest in it, strangely enough.
Why hadn't I had a crush on a boy before? Was something wrong with me? I always questioned myself daily. There must be something wrong with me. Maybe I was just overthinking, but why hadn't I had a crush on a boy yet?
All the girls around me had crushes, but I didn't. I don't understand why I hadn't had a crush yet, Am I normal?
Time skip
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When she would come around, my heart would beat faster. I've heard that only happens when you like someone. I can't like her. She's a girl, and girls aren't supposed to like each other.
I don't like this feeling at all. I've been distant, and she's starting to notice. What do I do?
It had been about a month since I'd discovered these "feelings." Yesterday, she confronted me, which was surprising.
She was always around that snob. her boyfriend—oh, I forgot to mention that. Yeah, she has a boyfriend now. We hardly ever spend time together anymore.
I froze. I didn't know what to do or say. So I cried and cried and cried and cried. It was embarrassing, even for her to be my best friend. It startled her, and she immediately went to hug me, but I backed up.
What's wrong with me? She's trying to comfort me, and I'm pushing her away. I think she took it as a sign to not touch me. Although I wanted her to, she didn't.
