I started listening to Bon Iver because of you
Now his music makes me feel some sort of peace
Even when you're gone
I will ride this moment on my own
I'm looking for myself
In all the pieces that you left
Dropped your shit right out my door
And refused to communicate further
'Cause I would rather immobilize
I'm moving on my own
But I get frozen seeing your eyes
Unapologetic and ungrateful goodbyes
Trying to avoid them
Trying to be kind
On my life
I'll be fine
I started reaching out to friends
Started doing things I always wanted
Guess this life is free
Without someone holding me back so closely
I take the knife out
And I no longer feel the need
To draw across my skin
I'd rather paint the beauty of my mind
I'm trying to remember
What I even wanted
From a man who'd rather take than give
Must've been the fixer in me
Too much money spent
Too much time wasted
I'm glorifying my stupidity into some sort of greatness
But the martyr in me is born out of desperation
So who's to say it's truly kindness?
On my life
I'll be fine
When there's no one there to immobilize me
I guess I'll go to parties
And I'll save up all my money
I'll talk to my friends and family
There's so much more about me
Than the demons you forced out
And I'll listen to Bon Iver not because of you
But because it's music I like to sing to
