♤𝙈𝘼𝙍𝙄𝘼

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𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐀ᯓ ᡣ𐭩

School has never been my thing , all this studying for what . To finally work for 50/60 years and live out 10 or less of them while you're old and grey ...

Not me , I wanted money and live my life to the fullest. Not bound by anyone or anything . That's why I don't date anymore . Just a waist of time , "Ria did u clean everything up?" My friend Rachel asked .

"Yes I did why ?" I ask her , and look from my phone to her . "Cause I'm having some friends over and later we go clubbing , I know it's not ur thing but please , come with me for once" she asks and I look at her .

Why me , for fucks sake I hate crowded places and a club , is the smallest fucking thing ever . "Hmm" , I say thinking she looks at me with some big ass puppy eyes .

"Fine, only because I never said yes and wanted to be bold today" I say . She smiles at me and I look to my phone again watching dumb TikToks cus girl who doesn't ?

"Well babes you have to choose and outfit , come on put that damn phone away and let's pick ur outfit" she says and drags me up from the couch and up the stairs and to my bedroom .

"Let's have a look shall we" she says , I look at her shocked at how she was acting normally she would be distant but now ?

"So , what about u borrow something out of my closet ?" She said . "Fine but not to short girl" I say and she laughs .

This is gonna take a while , till then I'll introduce myself , I'm Maria , 20 years old studying to become a  nurse , it's always been my goal to help people . Not matter the cause .

My mother died when I was little because of cancer . I miss her until this day .. Now I'm alone with my dad who has been supporting me with all my dreams and things I needed .

He is the one person I trust in this universe of lying and selfish and narcissistic people . I had my fair share of heartbreaks .

"PERFECTTT MY GIRL YOUR GONNA LOOK STUNNING", Rachel said all of a sudden . Which woke me up from my thoughts . "Okay try it on girl". I go into the bathroom and pull on the dress .

It was a black dress with thin straps and a little short to my liking but , it won't harm for clubbing right ?

"Look how beautiful u look girl" Rachel says , I look in the mirror . I do look pretty only thing I need to do is do some makeup and my hair . And all done .

"Okay now makeup and hair ?" She asks , as if she could read my mind . I have been living with Rachel my friend since middle school in a appartement in New York City . It's been the best time of my life till now .

I grew up in Russia and both my parents are Russian well my mother was half Russian and Italian . She was so beautiful , black hair . Green eyes , I look just like her .

That's what my dad always told me , and always showed me pictures of my momma . She was the most incredible person and sweetest ever .

My father Niko Pavlov and my mother Natalya Pesci . Mix them and you have me , Maria-Natalya Pavlov-Pesci .

Named after my mother after she died very soon after I was born . I still miss her everyday , the hurt and pain was over but the gap . It can never be filled ..

"Ria u okay ?" Rachel asks . I nod and go to my room and get ready . So I always write things down in my diary this also , it's like my own little diary .

My life , drama , romance , heartbreaks and most of all : pain .

This is my life in a little note book , and future me , I hope you get someone to love you unconditionally .