bittersuite | b.e

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adrienne adair
10:21 am

so maybe it is my yearly crush on billie,
or she just looks so absolutely good this year.

and she has always looked attractive ever since we were little kids, not a singular flaw about her maybe other than her annoying teasing. she's always held herself up confidently and i rarely got to see her fail. i don't think i could ever get over my crush on her.

but i don't think it's equal.

i thought about it more deeply, losing my thoughts to the baking that happened in front of me. the three of us all made cinnamon rolls this morning. specfically for maggie as it was her favorite tradition we always do. billie was mixing the frosting, letting some of it whip out the bowl as she took some on her finger to taste. taking the icing that laid upon her lip, she flicked her tongue over it not missing a beat to the mixing.

jesus

finneas's eyes stayed on me longingly before he shoved me a little. "keep baking, these need to be perfect for my mom" not a joke was lingering in his voice, causing me too fake a smile and continue. i don't know what his deal has been since i got here.

and it hasn't been long but whenever there was a slight moment between me and billie i noticed he would lose his cool a little. but this has never happened before.

the most i seen finneas be jealous is when his ex boyfriend, him being bisexual, was kissing another boy.

we spent the rest of the day chilling at the house. i've had my day in the bedroom, the pool, the kitchen, and now me and maggie sat spread on the couch as we watched the notebook for maybe the 8th year in a row.

a sickening heart throbbing story.

"this movie never gets old," maggie exclaims wiping a dramatic tear from her eye. she was such an empathic person, it could bring anyone to tears. i smile and mumble a 'yeah' hearing footsteps come from upstairs.

the two boys and billie all were dressed up, coming behind the couch to explain that there was a party going on. "mom it's gonna be a rager." explained finneas earning a snort from billie.

"yeah, like anyone fucking says that anymore" maggie relayed a 'language' before telling them to be safe and drive safely. she had so much trust in her kids to keep themselves safe. but i think she was too tired most of the time to care.

"wait can't i come?" i whipped my head around almost getting up. the thought of going to an actual party sounded all too good for me, even though I've never been to one. but maybe finneas was right, maybe there are ragers out there just like the movies.

"i don't know-" billie started to express concern before she was cut off by finneas. "sure come on, adri. go get ready real quick" i noticed the glance the two shared.

a smile spread across my face from ear to ear as i jumped up from the couch. maggie continued to lecture the boys about what to do incase of an emergency as i ran upstairs instantly rummaging through my suitcase. my phone rang a few times from my bestfriend and i answered relatively quickly

bean

girl where tf r u
☹️

sorry i was watching a movie
with my mom
NOWWW im going to a PARTY😏😏

ahh shit do u actually
have a hot outfit

bitch wtf does that mean
don't i always look cute

babe that's cute😕
not hot.☝️
send a picture of the dress