kavetham | Genshin impact

Chapter 1

Alhatham POV:

I just love the way his hair sways in the wind..every second I'm around him I just get these off feelings..I've known him for like forever so why now am I just feeling this? I never noticed this at first but I've been looking at him a lot more recently and I can't get him off my mind. Just as I said that a blonde haired boy walked into the house. It was Kaveh..

"Hey, forget your keys again?" I said as I tossed him his keys that he had left as he was rushing to work in the morning.

"H-Hey! When did you get those!? Did you swipe them off of me or something!?" He said as he walked over to me and grabbed them from my hand. He looked so good.. even when he's mad at me. I can't tell if I hate him or love him anymore but god did he look fine.

"Helloo?" I must have been thinking for too long before Kaveh interrupted my thinking "Huh?" I said "you looked like you were staring into space or something, anyway did you go shopping? I need some of the stuff ""oh sorry but yes I did go shopping. The fruits are on the table and your soup is in the cupboard like it always is.." I responded quickly. He immediately rushed over to the kitchen and opened the cupboard where the soup was and opened it. "Thank you!!" He said as he grabbed his stuff and went to his room to keep working away at his projects.

I wonder how easy it is to just keep out from everything and everyone.. just sitting around listening to music while working on your project, I wonder how easy it would be to just leave everything behind and stop bothering everyone around me..
"Hatham? You seem like you're zoning out a lot more recently..are you doing okay" oh? He's acting like he actually cares about me but all I really am is just a source of shelter and food for him. He acts like he cares but I know he doesn't care about me at all. "U-uh yea I'm just thinking.." "oh? About what?" He walks over to me and leans over my chair while smiling "I'm not really thinking of much just about this uhm..book..yea just this book I found today and I can't stop thinking about it " Did I just lie to him!? I didn't think I would ever have to lie to him ever but I feel like this was a situation where I just had to lie to get out of this. "Huh, never thought you would be the one to have to think about the ending of a book but okay" he said as he chuckled and just walked back into his room.

Just as he closed his room door I felt something in my throat.. it was like a knife stabbing into it like 100 times, in response I just started coughing a lot until I saw blood in my hand.. I felt shocked. I just sat there for what seemed like hours. I just got up, washed my hands and went to bed listening to Kaveh blasting music in his room. At least his taste in music was decent..

The second I woke up I started choking on coughs, I looked at the clock and it was 01:38. I got up and went to the bathroom trying not to wake up the blonde, I entered the bathroom and closed the door so there was some sort of sound reduction. I got on my knees and hovered over the toilet coughing and coughing until I saw blood again.. I got really worried and just kept choking on my blood. I looked below me into the bowl of water and it looked like someone got murdered. I just sat there in shock until I threw up at the sight. I heard a knock at the door and a worried man asked "Are you okay!?" I got so scared I just responded with no thought "Yeah I'm fine!" I was indeed not fine.. I just chocked up blood and threw up but I got up, flushed the toilet, washed my hands and left the room. When I walked out I saw Kaveh sitting on the couch and sat up immediately looking so worried but I didn't believe him. He shot up and yelled "What happened!? Are you okay!? Why were you coughing so much!?" I felt overwhelmed by the question and just said "im fine" and walked away. Why did I walk away? I regret it so much. I don't want to lie to Kaveh, he's so sweet and kind but sometimes I feel like he doesn't like me back..Hell I don't even know if he likes me or not. I just walked into my room, shut the door and tried to go back to sleep. I looked at the clock and it was 02:46. I'll just try to get some sleep.. but that didn't happen, I sat there for almost an hour before I could go back to sleep because of the pain in my chest. It hurt so much but I just tried to go to sleep.

In the morning I woke up to the same excruciating pain in my chest and throat 'why is this happening..it hurts so bad' I got up from my bed and looked at the clock again, it was 08:31. I just stood up and walked out of my room like nothing was wrong but everything hurt like a knife stabbing me 100 times. I made a coffee but when I drank it that hurt my throat so much more so I just set it down acting like I made it for the blonde. I looked over at the calendar and remembered that Me, Kaveh, Cyno, and Tighnari had plans for lunch and TCG today. I don't think I'll be able to make it through without coughing my lungs out. I went to go sit down but I was interrupted by a blonde walking out of his room in an oversized sweater and shorts, he looked so cute in them. Oh my god he looked like a goddess with his sleepy eyes, messy hair and the outfit. He looked at the coffee on the table and said "Did you make this for me?" I snapped out of my dreamy state and said yes so he picked it up and drank it. I reminded him that we were hanging out with the other two today and he smiled and nodded.

He's acting like nothing happened last night and I felt another coughing fit coming so I excused myself to the washroom and started coughing so much I actually started crying because it hurt so much. The sharp pain in my lungs and throat made me feel like I could take it anymore but I just started choking on my own air and then there it was again. The blood. I don't why this was happening..why me? Like what did I do to deserve this? I couldn't take it so I tried to get my mind off the pain in my chest by picking up a razor from the shower in the bathroom and took it apart to grab the razor part and kept slicing at the skin on my arms, it was so satisfying how the blood followed right after the razor cut across it. Before I knew it, it worked. I forgot about the pain in my chest and transferred it to my arms. It hurt a lot less on my wrist than my lung but I overdid it. My arms looked like a war zone so I cleaned the blood off the razor and carefully put it back while rolling down my sleeve so you couldn't tell that I did that. I walked out of the restroom and he was standing outside the washroom again. "You sound sick, we should go to a hospital or something.." there it is again him acting concerned and like he cares about me.. I'm just a waste of space but I really don't want to go to the hospital so I just responded with "it's not that bad, I'll be fine" and walked to the living room sitting on the couch picking up a book with my ruined arm, the man followed me and said "okay, but it's not going to be MY fault when you get really sick and probably die.." death? I've never thought about it but it sounds like a good way to leave peacefully and make everyone's life easier by just leaving off the face of the planet. "I'll be fine" I said but I hope that it would kill me off and make everyone happier by not having to see me.

After I finished my book it was 10:40 and I got up to get ready for the day and hang out with the other two. I walked into the bathroom to have my shower, I took off my clothes and looked at my arm. It stung but it's better than the pain in my chest all the time. I felt my stomach hurt so I bent over the toilet and threw up when I saw a bunch of blood and.. a flower petal..? That does not seem right.. I was shocked. I don't know what to do. I just sat there.. Why did I just sit there? I slowly stood up and just pretended like nothing happened, flushed the toilet and turned on the water in the shower so it could heat up. I just wanted a normal life where I was happy and I didn't hurt everyone around me just by being there. I was hungry but I didn't have the energy to eat anything so I just got in the shower and washed my hair. The shampoo suds hurt the cuts on my wrist but I didn't care anymore and just continued my shower. I finished my shower and got out, wrapped myself in a towel and went to my room to get dressed. I got dressed, did my hair and was ready for my day. I just sat waiting for Kaveh to be ready so we could go, it was 11:07 and we were supposed to leave at 11:20 so I just sat around for 10 minutes waiting for someone, until that someone walked out of his room looking so good that he could literally win a trophy at a beauty pageant.

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(Also sorry if there are spelling mistakes I'm a very messy writer)