I Hope If You Ever Hear my Name...

Monday 8th July 11am and 5pm.

For the past two nights I have been in bed at just gone 6pm. I cannot stay awake later, usually, and i passed out three times yesterday and fell asleep for about 40 minutes at a time. I've just passsed out now and have just got back up again....

I had a dream last night that I travelled to another planet and universe and met an alien who looked exactly like a man and he wanted to be in a relationship with me. I asked my Guardian Angel, "Are you there?" he said, "I am." and i loved him. my Guardian Angel killed the man. I found the alien boring... he was speaking in riddles. He had jet black hair and was tall. Then I travelled back to earth and dreamt that "David" and "Tim" were watching me in the shower.

Some people have normal names in here... others have names like, "MIKE. A. WISH." or "EIREE." or "ARSEN." or, "Laure" said "Law." others are just called plain "David..." . Nobdoy in here knows my name... I remember saying to the "Security guard" yesterday that I didn't like to be called Kim. "Yes, Kim, you are not okay Kim."
"I don't like to be called Kim."
"O.K. Kim!!"
"No, please don't call me Kim. I hate the name Kim. I have ALWAYS hated the name Kim."
"Okay then: Kimberley is your name!"
"No, I don't like that name. Please stop calling me Kim or Kimberley."
"Kimberley, O.K." and I swear he was just trying to provoke me. I said, "my name is Angel." he just nodded and left. That specific "security guard" looks just like a spider................. anyway.

Thismorning the SOS were out shopping for all the things i bought on Amazon yesterday. I asked for two last items, please: many, many flower, forrest, berry and vanille room sprays (odorisers) and multiple packs of the vaille trees that one puts in cars - you can normaly get them from the petrol station, and Caitlin, Lucas and I LOVE the smell so i will have some in every room of the house.

The SOS tell me that I am moving back to England, to somewhere just outside of London city. I'm quite very happy about this - Excellent!!

They say the postman will be here in a few hours. GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Excellent. Perfect. Wonderful. Lovely. Very welcome he is!! I hope he drives safely! Hurray!

Love Your Angel xxx

Aryia CassandraMon, Jul 8, 11:09 AM (1 day ago)ps. computer nerds: the speakers on my laptop have gone again. I don't suppose you could sort them out for me? Thank you xxxxxxAngel Mary Aryia Clement <wisdominhewhois@gmail.com>Mon, Jul 8, 4:40 PM (20 hours ago)to Aryia, Angel, Caitlin, SacredThismorning I was studying a course on the topic of Narcolepsy, and I have now passed the exam and can buy the certificate. I am now trying to pass the exam of an HTML course OR if I cannot and need to go back through the course '(I need my sound to work for that.) I will study another childcare course.

I've been outside twice today... need I say it but everybody in here killed each other while I was gone, and I would say God bought back the peace and while this is true that they are not taking each others lives outside the room right now, they are.. "GO KILL HER!!!"... trying to take mine.

I've taken to sitting in the large lounge with the big windows which is the biggest and lightest room in the entire unit and my favorite and it is away from all those people and what they are saying, so I am not commenting on it much. The most I am hearing is when it is a mealtime or when i'm in the smoking room with "Junior" who keeps telling me, "I'll rape you! Smoke?! Smoke?! No! No! Rape and kill Mary! Yes! Yes! Am I right or am i wrong? I?m right!!" or at the mealtimes, "Surely she wont survive this.... with what she is eating!!!" and I do and I live and I am completely unharmed because GOD saves my life every single time without fail. Jesus says "Your faith has saved your life." I know he's my Lord GOD doing this. I have no protection and I am only a tiny little thing. All the men are large scary men... carrying weapons and prone to seriel killing. I even handed in the lighter they forgot to take away from me earlier... leaving me with just myself, (can do nothing if somebody attacks), God and Jesus, (can do everything and anything, only ask and GOD will Answer.) One does not even have to Pray but Jesus says sometimes all it takes is one word.. "GOD" I say... "and any other word" says Jesus Christ, "Help me." Jesus nods and says GOD is Answering.

I'm very hungry. I'm wondering how much longer i have in the "chnp" now.. the mafia base.... "Arsen" has just walked in and has put the TV on. I ask him to put the music on and he flicks through the channels saying, "I'm searching for it now.." then he mutters under his breath, "tssshhh... just....hit...her...!!!!!" and tuts his lips. I get comfy on my chair. I talk to GOD and JESUS and tell them that i have a really good idea for a new book in my head.. about a girl who was alive in Jesus's time, and then in our time (reincarnated) and then GOD took her back to Heaven and she was born just in time for Jesus's return. Jesus looks at his watch, then squeezes my hand and tells me that GOD will get my medicine to me soon. Jesus says GOD is sending somebody... but I just look down sad and say GOD is sending somebody every day and nobody ever comes here... I tell Jesus and GOD that I want to leave of my own accord. I say:

"I wish there was the prescription to collect in the chemist and the court documents at the police station to collect so that i could save my children and never come back here. I wish I could leave of my own accord because I think my rescuers and the police would think me ugly... I don't know if the postman or the ambulance would judge, but i think they might and i don't want them to look at me. If only i could get free myself then i could go and have a make.over before showing myself to anybody... aside from Caitlin and Lucas of course. But I need the postman to come because he has all the things i need............ but nobody ever comes here. That's another reason I need to be able to go on my own... and why they should ensure the prescriptions and all documents are with the police and in the chemist by the morning, (if not sending the non-judgemental postman tonight, and he wont come now, its too late in the day...) because I NEED to, I Have to leave myself.. because we all know... Nobody will ever come here to save me."
Jesus nods in understanding and tells me, "God's will be done. God's most beautiful creation. Now, modest one, " says jesus and I listen......"They are here. they are reading and they'l be staright up."

hrm.. We'll see....please no cameras on me in that case incase I am really, really ugly. My hair is cut short. I have fat under my chin. I'm large... i think... and not biig enough where my baby is... etc etc etc. Thank you, ym Lords, for your time listening. I will send now and go to smoke. Jesus says, "God be with you."
"GOD is with you." GOD speaks.
"I'll raaaaape!!!" says "Junior", running around the room.... I press send and do exactly as I have said.

Amen.