Conquering the Alpha (BxB) - Werewolf Story

Chapter 11: Bad Things

I am afraid.

I have been attending Ravenwood Academy for only three weeks now but I am already deeply infatuated with a boy.

I know that is why I came here, to find a quality partner, but I am scared that I will fall flat on my ass when forces outside of our control keep us from being together.

I do not mean to sound like Jayden and I are the Romeo and Juliet of our time, not at all. Our families don't hate each other. His family just might have different expectations for him.

I do know that he told me that his mother is okay with him claiming me. But his grandfather, on the other hand, is not sold on us. He is very traditional, even though his partner was not picked for her wealth. She was mated to him.

Those were the days... *sigh*

Still, I do see how the students here react to him. The longing eyes and curious glances, even my roommate would not be opposed to being his partner.

In many ways, I feel like Jayden is more coveted than Skylar. Especially because he is actually a decent person. He does not think himself entitled just because he is an Alpha from a great pack.

He was raised well, maybe being black plays some part in it, I don't know, but I feel weird addressing a minor part of his identity. It is not my place to comment on his race since I can never know what it is like walking in his shoes. But that really does not matter at all as far as I am concerned.

To me, he is just the boy who is unafraid to challenge preconceived notions and prejudices just to stay with me.

I am sure we would be very happy together, but we are a far cry from the claiming ceremony.

It's Saturday, the second week of September. I decided to stay the weekend here at Ravenwood to keep my roommate company since he was not traveling back to his pack in Texas.

Since Jayden was here too, we decided to make a date out of it and spent last night cozying up together on the sofa of the common area in the first tower of the Ravenwood Academy.

We were not exactly alone there, but there are very few places where we could get privacy except for our rooms, and even then our respective roommates would be there.

Teenagers are nothing if not resourceful, but I am not rushing to be locked away with him completely alone just yet.

Not that I don't want to, I do. But I cannot afford to give myself up to him. It is very much a case of 'don't give the milk for free or he won't want to buy the cow' kind of thing.

I hate to feel like this, but the last thing I need is for me to fall pregnant and for people to accuse me of trying to force his hand to claim me. And by people, I mean Headmaster Lockwood, Jayden's grandfather.

He would sooner pay the million dollar fine than to see his grandson claiming me.

Let me be crystal clear: I do not want the money. If I wanted to be left alone and pregnant, I wouldn't need to come here. I could achieve that on my own.

What I truly want is a partner. A lasting relationship that would allow for us to at least raise the child together.

I am too young to get pregnant anyway, so there's also that. But there are other things that we could do, if you catch my drift... *naughty grin*

But we did not have the time or privacy to do that either. It's too soon anyway, there is no rush.

With that being said, I do want him. I cannot lie, I desire Jayden a great deal. Now that I am approaching my heat season, I need to be extra careful. Vigilant.