What will happen to us? ☙bkdk☙

just lie to me, izuku -4-

Izuku stared at the blond. Could he open up? He debated it. You know what, why not. He would be gone very soon so telling Katsuki wouldn't matter.

"I've been planning since I was 12." Izuku said quietly. Katsuki gasped quietly at his words.

"Izuku you're almost 17! What day are you planning it? Please tell me, I need to know. You can leave Izuku, you are so much more than what you think!" Katsuki half-yelled. Izuku could tell he was hurt, he was holding this in for a while and he was finally able to vent his feelings to Izuku.

"April 20th." Izuku closed his eyes. He knew that Katsuki would yell at him for that date.

"What? My fucking birthday? You're joking." Katsuki said, he sounded extremely pissed off.
"Not only are you so fixated on killing yourself but you do it on my goddamn birthday. Really?"

Izuku squeezed his eyes shut harder and nodded. Katsuki sighed in disbelief. Katsuki got angrier at Izukus reaction. He wasn't pissed, he was furious.

"Why my birthday, hm?" Katsuki looked at Izuku, although he was looking at his lap.

"I didn't know. I said that years ago, it just so happened to be that day. Katsuki I need to leave, it's selfish to stay and burden everyone with myself. I'm just tired of being a failure and a chore." Izuku cried. He wanted Katsukis comfort, he needed Katsukis arms. Why was he like this?

Katsuki frowned and pulled Izuku into a hug, he didn't let go. Izuku grabbed his shirt and held on, like it was the last time.

"I'm not letting you go, nerd." Katsuki said.

Izuku cried harder, he felt awful.

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5 days later, it was a Wednesday. All classes had an exam and everyone was tired. Katsuki and Izuku have been inseparable since Friday, and Izuku opened up fully to Katsuki. Izuku didn't think he could do it anymore. He wanted to die so badly but he listened to Katsuki and he began to believe everything his boyfriend was telling him.

The exams were difficult and students were cramming and studying like crazy the last few days. I guess the work from Katsuki and Izuku paid off because they got top scores, per usual.

The two boys were extremely exhausted, going straight to Izukus bed after school was finally let out. They laid together and rested, Katsuki scrolled on Instagram and Izuku just watched. He saw his classmates posting each other and suddenly felt bad he rarely posted Katsuki. They were very famous and he wasn't sure how the public would react to them. They had their private accounts of course, but that's all Izuku had Katsuki on.

"Izu- hey nerd," Katsuki smirked and looked down at Izuku. He had his hand on Katsukis abs and it make him laugh, Izuku was so clueless.

"Hm?" Izuku looked up with an innocent expression, Katsuki decided to leave it be. He was trying to tease but Izuku was too cute to mess with.

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3 days later, a Saturday.

Izuku relapsed.

Izuku bled, and bled. He wasn't conscious because of the blood loss, he was propped up on the wall to his bathroom, blood surrounded around him. Izuku cut more than he ever had before, he felt like it was necessary, to be put in his place again.

These few weeks have been like a distraction from the real world and Izuku needed to get a grip. This was the only effective way.

Izukus phone had been ringing for 10 minutes straight now, Katsuki was calling.

Banging on his door wasn't doing anything, Izuku was dying on his bathroom floor. Eventually the knocking stopped and Katsuki busted through the door, he was yelling. The bathroom door was shut, so he didn't see Izuku straight away, thankfully.