Aniko: Shattered dreams of love

End of the shattered dream

Anikó had more issues with her back and moved to Arizona. The dry climate helped her. She attended the University of Arizona in Tucson, studying nursing. In the meantime, during the autumn of 1978, Laszlo moved on to another company. He had to relocate to Guelph, Ontario. It was paid for by the company. Rose moved with him also. He rented a very nice two-bedroom unit. Laszlo worked for ITT Fluid Products in Guelph, Ontario, an American conglomerate. Ironically, ITT had an assembly plant in Glendale in the Phoenix area, and he could have asked for a transfer to move down there. It was possible to get admitted into the USA that way. He could have been with Anikó if she truly would have wanted to be with him.

In 1979 and 1980, Anikó contacted Laszlo several times. They got together when she returned to Niagara Falls during the summers. Spent a few days, even a week together, at his place or up north in Attila's cottage. It was no more separate beds. Anikó was of legal age, and certainly, she was no virgin. They slept together during those visits and had a warm intimacy.

Anikó had called Laszlo her Rock of Gibraltar. Strong, steady, and dependable. Anikó always felt re-energized by being with Laszlo. She loved him in despite the devious ways Mary controlled her. Loved the way he was with her, never being violent towards her, the intimate moments they shared. Anikó admitted to Laszlo,     

"I fuck, when she tells me to fuck, whoever she tells me to fuck! I will not marry you because I am not allowed to marry you! But I do love you, and I will always love you! I always look forward to being together with you when I can, I do not fuck, but I make love to you, and it is because I want to be with you and not because I am told."

Laszlo didn't care anymore and had known this for years. There were no more secrets. Laszlo knew he could not have any expectations. Laszlo lost trust and faith in her yet he loved her regardless. 

In 1980, he had even been willing to fly down to Tucson, to look for a job to be with her. Laszlo had spoken several times with the Human Resource manager at ITT, who was willing to help him transfer to one of their manufacturing places in the area. Working at ITT was a benefit. But as usual, Mary prevented their union. Laszlo made a reservation for a return flight, and could not get a refund. This truly pissed off Laszlo. Instead of going down to Tucson, Laszlo moved back to Toronto to the company that once had fired him, as their Chief Estimator. For almost two years Laszlo did not hear from Anikó, and he thought for sure he never would, but in 1982 she surfaced once again.

Anikó through Martha found out that he had moved to Toronto, and now had a good position and salary. She contacted him in May of 1982. She found him by checking with the telephone directory service. She got lucky, his name was listed as his last name was unique. She wrote letters and postcards and called him on the phone. She was very proud of his achievements, but most of all, she needed to be with him.

On July 9th, she arrived in Niagara Falls from Tucson, by driving her Cadillac. Laszlo went down to see her and took her back to Toronto for a few days in his 1975 Olds 98 Regency, with a highly modified 455 Rocket V-8. She loved his Regency, it was so fast! They had a lovely time as always when she was by herself.

Laszlo still loved her despite all the deceit over the years. She was sweet, loving, sexy, and so much fun when they were together without Mary nearby. He loved that they could talk in Hungarian. When they were out, let them have more privacy. She still had dreams that both could have enjoyed if only she could commit.

Laszlo saw Anikó for the last time on July 13, 1982, when he drove her back to Niagara Falls. He gave her one last chance to marry him. Laszlo was willing to forget all the bygones, and deceit, to give her at least some of her dreams. Which they talked about in their earlier years. He had a good position and salary as a Chief Estimator at Allen Tank. He wanted to marry her that week in a civil ceremony. No more games, no more interference from Mary. Laszlo wanted her to reply by the 17th when she indicated that she would come to Toronto to visit him.

He was ready to go with her anywhere in the world. He had a good skill set and experience in the pressure vessel field. He had continued his education and now had a diploma in Business Administration. Laszlo did not had to worry about his mother Rose. She had her own little apartment nearby, with all kinds of connivances in the building and pension. Finally she had a pleasant life now.

Anikó never showed up on the 17th or even bothered to call him on the phone, "I cannot make it today." For Laszlo, this was the end of his shattered dreams with the girl he first said "I love you" to, his soulmate that could have been and was, in so many ways. He loved Anikó with all his heart. His on-and-off six-year-old relationship with Anikó was over for good. He was disappointed but not upset. He understood that Anikó was very honest and warned him in 1980, realizing what Anikó said was from her heart about herself and her mother...

"I fuck, when she tells me to fuck, whoever she tells me to fuck! I will not marry you because I am not allowed to marry you! But I do love you, and I will always love you! I always look forward to being together with you when I can, I do not fuck, but I make love to you, and it is because I want to be with you and not because I am told."

Anikó was too weak to break her mother's chains and was beyond redemption. Laszlo's love and forgiveness for her sins were just not enough! It was very tragic to see such a lovely person destroyed over the years by her own evil mother.

On the 19th, Anikó called Rose on the telephone. She said to Rose that she would be coming to Toronto from Niagara Falls on the 24th and to tell Laszlo that she was ready to give him the reply. Rose knew about her son's deadline. Told Anikó that she had missed his deadline and Laszlo would be out of town. When Anikó and Mary arrived on the 24th to Toronto, Laszlo was in Honey Harbour. They drove to Laszlo's apartment, but there was no answer. They proceeded to Rose's apartment, about 60 yards east of his. Rose told them through the intercom what she had told Anikó when she had called earlier on the phone. Laszlo was out of town. They insisted on talking to her and asked her to let them in, but she refused to see them. 

Anikó, with Mary in tow, still did not give up as they went to see Laszlo's friends, Eva and Attila, in whose cottage she and Laszlo stayed. Anikó tried to convince them to talk to Laszlo. She knew that they were very close to Laszlo, and he perhaps would listen to them. Attila was not home. Only Eva was, and she was shocked by them. Eva said it was up to Laszlo, and they did not want to get involved in their affairs. Mary put a curse on Laszlo and Rose, after she spoke to Eva, to fail in his  future relationship and Rose to die in agony.  Eva called Laszlo when he returned from Honey Harbour what a miserable witch Mary was. Eva felt sorry for Anikó, and Laszlo should be happy that he was done with them for good.

Laszlo never heard from Anikó again but did miss her. She set a standard in many ways. He always wished her well...

Laszlo got married in 1994, and his wife in 1995 decided to rip out and destroy all his photos of Anikó and others out of a jealous fit. Despite having no images of Anikó, apart from one he could find the negative for, their engagement photo, her image was etched in his memory bank for eternity.

In 2024, Laszlo did an internet search of Anikó out of curiosity to see whatever happened to his first love. Anikó attended a University and received several degrees in Nursing and General Biology. She had several different last names, indicating several marriages. She had two grown children. She got married again in July 2024. Only God knows how many times. She partially fulfilled her dream they talked about in 1976 at Niagara Falls without László. But at what moral cost?

Anikó was a lifetime ago, in another universe and was purged from his soul forever. That is what he tried to convince himself. He also knew he would never forget his first love...