Okay so I took all of this down because gurl is retiring this, but, guessssss WHATTTTTTT???!!??!??? GUESSSS WHOOOOOOOO???!!!???!!
GUESSSSS WHO GRADUATEDDD TODAY?!?! 💗💗💗
I GRADUATED TODAYYYYY!!!!! CLASS OF 2024!!!! YA GURL HAS OFFICIALLY GRADUATED. I'VE FINISHED SECONARY SCHOOL! I'M FREE 😭
but yes I graduated today and I'm officially, on paper finished my secondary school part of education. I'm so happy like it's so surreal. I'm just remembering what school was like from start to middle to finush. I'm just remembering how awful it was and how much I fucking I hated. Just remembering the life when I was going to school and how life was for me then. Remembering the moments where I just thought:
"when will this end"
"what am I gonna do"
"omg I hate my life"
"I wanna fucking die"
"mum please just let me stay home today"
"I can't wait till I'm finished school"
"I hate school"
Basically everyone and their fucking grandma are always like "you say you hate school but you'll miss it when you leave. " You obviously didn't really fucking hate school if there's something for you to miss. I writing this Im scowling because I just hate school that fucking much and I am so happy that I don't have to go back. I don't miss it. I hate it. I'm finished school and I don't miss it, I hate it. I'm glad that I've left. That place broke me more that anything in life and I hate it and I don't miss it. I'm finally out of there and I remember dreaming of wanting to be out of there and theres nothing right not better than the fact that I'm actually out of there.
Let's clap it up for me finishing school thooooooo 🙏🙏💗💗 I went through it and I walked out. It's a moment I begged for so much and it's here. Its something I always talked about and it's upon me. I am so fucking happy. Yes, all the feelings, memories and emotions are being brought up but I am honestly so genuinely happy and couldn't be happier . I'm smiling big and geeky right now. Like my whole life, depression, this fucking journal has be building up to this moment. The all sprouted because of school and now I'm in a time where I've finished school, graduated from school. The root and beginning of all of my problems. I've fucking completed it.
I am so happy. I an truly soo happy and grateful and I'll remember this feeling for a long time. I seriously can't put it in good enough words to just tell you reading this and future ne reading this how happy this is making me. How this moment is so important and big, not because I've graduated but because this moment is what I been dreaming of since I was 11 and I'm fucking 16 now, because everyday I lived sinced going into secondary school was so hell that I cried myself to sleep, cried because f the pain and hurt myself and lost myself through it all. School was so hard and I thought it was gonna kill me(it did but yk not physically) there was some days when I felt so bad and couldn't see this moment ever happening. But it did and I am again, so greatful and happy. I am so greatful for past me for holding ion when there was nothing to hold on to. Greatful to the friends that made it worth the while sometimes, to my parents who paid for the graduation fee and to Wattpad for having my back. I can't say thank you enough to this app who showed 12 yr old me a whole new world, who made me laugh, smile and just every emotion out there. Thank you to this three book series, it was never about views it was just about w writing what I felt and putting it somewhere. The amount of times when I felt absolutely awful and just coming on here and writing that washed it all away is uncountable. This is a goodbye because I'm leaving and have no plans on coming back. I want to say thank you and lots and lots and lots of love
Anyways, I just wanted to share that I've officially graduated 🎉🎉🎉 I'm so happy and I literally just HAD to say it likeeeee omg I FREAKING GRADUATED
- lee, 14th of July, 12:26, signing out 🩷
