Espresso Love (SanDhir)

Chapter 4 - Stale Stain

So Farzi, I know I haven't really ever told you just how much I love you, but I guess that's just how I am. I don't think I can ever say all this to you personally because every time I look at you, I still feel nervous. As if all the words disappear from my mind, leaving me appearing to be stupid as I mumble incoherently. I know it has only been a year officially, but the truth is that I fell for you long time back. It took only a few brushes with you for me to fall in love with you and everything about you. Surprisingly, I had realized that in first year itself! I hated how I felt about you, so I always tried to diminish your worth in my perspective. Obviously it didn't work but I still kept trying. I tried to make your life a living hell and you still didn't break. You often ask me why I love you, right? Well the answer is simple. Because you're YOU Sanyu! The way you fought for your dreams and continue to do so inspires me! The importance you give to your family and friends make me wish I did the same! The way you solve Vardhaan Sir's questions with ease makes me respect your determination! But the most important thing: the way you changed me Sanyukta! You loved a man who was incapable of feeling these things before! You taught me how to love! I know I sound so unlike the usual Randhir you know, but I just had to tell you all this Sanyukta. Thank you for being in my life Farzi! You complete me, my love!

Now a slight tangent; wipe your tears and eat the cookies! If anything, you always know where to find me ;)

And also, I should add, don't get too used to this whole letter-writing business. That'll be reserved for only special occasions ;)

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I still remember re-thinking whether I was ready to really express myself to her. I just didn't know if we were on the same page, so it was rather risky for me to be so open. But I knew that my feelings were genuine and that I was serious. Serious about her, serious about us. It took me a few cans of beer to get myself to actually print out that letter, but the important thing is that I did. Looking back, I'm so glad for having written that letter. It solidified my feelings for her; making me realize, just how much I love her. But more than that, upon having her write a letter back to me, it helped me realize how much she loved me as well.

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To be completely honest with you, I had Kaustuki pinch me hard while reading your letter because I couldn't believe you would be so blunt about your feelings. But Randhir, you never fail to surprise me, as usual. I'm writing this letter not because I feel obliged to, but because, like you, I too don't know how I'd be able to voice out my feelings in front of you. You make me feel all giddy when I see you. Especially when you smirk; (oh how I wish I could just forever live those moments). You make me feel like a girl without me having to do any of those silly girly things. I know you are the one for me Randhir! I can never have imagined in first year that I'd be saying such things to you, out of all. But I love you Randhir! You are the one I dream to spend the rest of my life with, and you are the one with whom that will happen. To our one year, and for many more to come!

Yours Forever,

Farzi :)

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"Sir, these are the shortlisted candidates that the agency has forwarded. These candidates have proven to be the elite of all that have associated themselves with the agency in the past. Would you like to take a glance at these files?" Avantika asked.

"Yes, please put them on my table Ms. Sharma."

"Sure Sir," she said as she left the files on my table. I was going to put them in my suitcase, planning to oversee the profiles at home, when my eyes landed on one specific folder.

Sanyukta, Sanyukta Mittal the file read on my table. This can't be right, I thought to myself. Flipping through her profile, my eyes landed on her marital status. Married... with Sameer Mittal?

And once again, my whole world broke apart.