My eyes feel heavy, my throat feels sore,
My chest aches a little, so do my cords.
I didn't wanna cut the call, even though we weren't speaking;
I just wanted your mere presence because I love the feeling.
I want you to stay, but I want you to go,
Because I'm selfish, so care for you.
I know how you feel, but don't know how I do;
I know your heart, that I've broken too.
For how I made you believe that I can't be yours;
In the past, the reason was just me; now it's you too.
Don't wanna break the broken again,
Because somewhere it will break me too.
I'd never forgive myself if I ever left you.
I don't know my future heart, if it'll ever belong to somebody;
I don't know what love is; do I love you?
I wish I knew that, so I could answer you.
I feel so bad for keeping you on the thin line that might break someday.
I hate to say this to you, I don't want you to go, but want that too.
Because I don't wanna hurt you anymore, but maybe I bleed too.
You made me reconsider my thoughts, which remained constant till now.
The thought I'll be alone and happy, now maybe I don't want to.
Maybe I want you with me, but I'm not sure.
I feel so stupid for feeling like this, because I promised myself not to.
You might make me ruin my commitment; I guess I'll do it for you.
For now, I feel so lost, in this emotional haze
For you and me , nowadays
Scared for my future, and the uncertainty it sways
I'm afraid to take the leap, and surrender to my heart
But I know that love and pain are never far apart...
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poems of distress
Poetrywrote down how I felt at times. not beautiful to read but have deep feelings and messages behind. it's my first time writing 'poems' ig , also English isn't my native language so sorry if I made mistakes, kindly correct me there. thank you for readi...
