Until when will I suffer
I have always been afraid
Was I born with these fears?
Or am I just hallucinating?
I wonder what life is like
without terrors and sufferings
I would've dreamt of these nights
Where everything is soft and kind
I was soft and kind until terrors
and sufferings became my nightless
dreams of undying laws of freedom
I was never there for anyone
I tried to be a soldier of my own heart
But every time I try I just died more
And more until I am drowning
With fears of too much freedom
I stated my life as an unending failures
But the fact that I am always alone
Gave me enough courage to strengthen
up my whole entire being
I felt neglected by society whom
I never really know or understood
But I try even when these fears
Drowns my face into waters of eyes
One day, I will be where I will be
When I want to be at that time
when everything is in accordance
to the journey of my plans in life
I know one day of my life
will be an unending suffering
from success and richness
away from trembles and nightmares
