Her purple blood

Written from Amitys' POV. English is not my first language, I apologize if some parts make no sense.

Fuck I'm such a failure, sitting on the bathroom floor with a razor blade in my hand. I got 80% on the test, that's so low. I know I can do better, I really can, but I'm just so lazy. Fuck what's wrong with me, I need to do better. I look at my wrist, I didn't cut in so long this is gonna be worth it, I deserve it anyway. I bring the blade to my wrist so it's touching my skin, getting the courage to make the first cut. I think about it all, how I'm not good enough, ever, I always fail everything, I failed Luz, she's struggling and it's all my fault, I'm such a shitty girlfriend. I wish I could forget my mom, her disappointed in me whenever I was anything other than perfect, but I can't, I carry that shit real deep in me. So I press down and drag it across my wrist, and then again and again. One cut, two cuts, three, four and then five. I'm getting a little dizzy, blood is everywhere already, it looks like a fuckin murder scene. Suddenly I hear Luz, knocking on the bathroom door saying "Amity? Are you okay, you've been there for quite long, I'm worried about you hon". I try to answer as normal as I can but I start sobbing quietly, warm tears running down my face and my voice breaking, "Y-yeah, all good". But she knows something is wrong, just from my voice, "Amity, I know something is wrong,. please open the door", I love her so much but I can't open the door, she can't see me like this, I don't want her to be worried about me, I'm supposed to be strong. So I move in front of the door to block it. "AMITY, I'M COMING IN I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU SAY", and BOOM, the doors break being punctured by a big ice tower and Luz walks in. I try to avoid her eyes, but I accidentally do look her in the eyes and that moment was truly heartbreaking, her brown eyes, full of worry and disappointed, I can feel her breaking inside so I just start to sob loudly, trying to get at least a few words out of myself "I'm so sorry Luz, please don't be worried about me, I never meant to hurt you like this I promise", she get closer to me and hugs me tightly, and doesn't let go, she says "Amity, I love you so much, even when you're covered in blood, I'll never stop loving you and you are not too much", then she stops for a moment, her voice is breaking as well and she's sobbing too. After the pause she says "lets get you to the hospital okay, those cuts are quite deep", so we both get in her car, she helps me walk, as my legs are quite wobbly.