.-• Kissable Scars.. •-. (Kazuscara<3) (honestly i suck at making titles)

Oh wow scaramouche thinks of him as friend 😓

~          Scaramouche POV          ~
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Me and Kazuha decided to go to the park near his apartment after we ate breakfast together.

We sat at a bench together, watching the playground. Thought ran rampant through my head, about the kiss, about how I was going to face Kazuha. I'm facing him now, but it doesn't feel like it. Because neither of us have mentioned the kiss. Fuck.

We both stayed silent, Kazuha making the occasional comment about the playground.

The kiss. What was it to me? If I kissed him, does that mean I liked him? No. That's impossible.

Right?

I'm not gay, I'm really not. I've never liked a guy in my life. I've only liked girls. I think.

But Kazuha's pretty. Like a girl, but he's also handsome like a guy. He kind of looks like both. With looks like that, I can understand why he's so popular.

I felt a sudden touch on my hand, grabbing it. "We didn't come to the park for nothing, Scaramouche." Kazuha was holding my hand, standing up in front of me. He wants me to go play on the playground, right? I nodded, standing up as well.

He dragged me over to the playground, some of the little kids looked interested that two big kids were on the playground now. "Pfft." A small laugh escaped my mouth. Kazuha seemed kind of childish when he was like this.

We messed around on the playground. It was fun, I missed having fun like this. With Childe and Signora and all them. I missed this.

I'm glad I have a friend like Kazuha. I'm also glad he's not affected by the kiss, he doesn't seem to care all that much, so why do I? I guess I should just get over it, then. There's no need to overthink all of this.

Me and Kazuha swung on the swings. Well, I guess it was more just sitting, since neither of us were swinging much.

"Hey, Winter break is coming up soon in a couple weeks, right?" I asked, trying to start up a conversation for once.

Kazuha smiled. "Yeah, I heard that we me might have a chance at a white Christmas this year. They don't know for sure yet, though." Kazuha looked excited at the mention of snow. Anyone would be if there was a chance of it snowing on Christmas.

Wait, this is my chance to invite Kazuha somewhere with me! He and him friends aren't close anymore right? So that means he could hang out for Christmas? "Hey Kazuha, my mother owns a cabin a little north of here. If you want, you and me could go for Christmas?" I looked away nervously. Why would I even ask him that?! He's defiantly going to say no, we're not even that close probably.

"I'd love to go with you, Scaramouche." I looked up, he was staring me right in the eyes. His face was warm. It felt like it was heating my face up. "I don't have any family to celebrate with, anyways." He stood up.

"Do you want to go get lunch with me as well? It's been a couple hours since we ate breakfast." I stood up as well, nodding an answer to his inquiry.

He took me to a breakfast and lunch diner, it was an outside restaurant. It seemed pretty new. Actually, this and the cafe seemed new, and I know the cafe was new. I've never seen this restaurant before in my whole time living here, and I've been here since I was born. It makes me think about all the things I've missed being gone for 2 and a half years. This fucking sucks. It's not even that much, but it feels like a lot. The Fatui has been totally disbanded, Signora won't talk to me until I talk to her first (which is fair I guess), there's a bunch of new restaurants (for whatever reason?), and still Heizou hasn't gotten any reprimands. I hate this.

Whatever, let's focus on the positives. Maybe.

It was sunny and bright out today, and it's unusually hot for winter time. We were sitting down to eat, we had both already ordered our food, and it came really fast.

I took a bite of my cheeseburger. "You know, you kind of remind of someone I used to know. You don't even act anything like him, but you just remind me of him." Is that a good thing? I hope it's a good thing??

I looked up from my cheeseburger to look at Kazuha's face to be sure it was good thing. His face looked so... remorseful? Is that what you call it? He looked upset, but at the same time he look happy. Like he was remembering a fond memory. Maybe it is a good thing, then. Maybe this friend moved away or died or something.

Okay maybe I don't want Kazuha to be reminded of his friend when he sees me if his friend is dead. Like I'm honored and all but then it would be the only reason he's friends with me... and I wouldn't really appreciate our friendship then.

"Do I?" I tried being polite. Maybe it was a touchy subject for him, especially if the guy really is dead.

He shook his head, as if regaining himself. "Yeah, but never mind. Sorry for bringing that up." He smiled once again. Fuck, Now I feel bad.

Whatever, i shouldn't get myself too hung up on this. We were having a good time until now. Let's just act like this conversation never happened!

We sat in silence. Wow, it was awkward. "So when do you plan to go home?" I tried breaking the silence. Wait, that sounded like I wanted him to go home. "I mean— we can hang out as long as you like, if you just want to hang out longer." I usually hate hanging out with people, but Kazuha is fun. Even if things are really awkward.

After we finished lunch, Kazuha asked if we could head back to my house. I agreed, and we walked together.

I was greeted at the door by a very agitated sister. Damn, she really knows how to ruin good times. She didn't say anything, so I guess she wasn't mad at me and more in a bad mood than anything. Well, that's good at least? She probably got dumped by one of her side girlfriends or lost a client. Who knows.

She let me in, then her face immediately brightened when she saw Kazuha. "Kuni's boyfriend!" I felt my face heat up. What the hell?!

"Ahah, I'm not Scaramouche's boyfriend." He laughed nervously, then his toned took a turn.

"Yet, that is."

"...What?!" I let out a surprised yelp, lashing my head around to face Kazuha. He looked so innocent saying that, I felt my face heat up even more. Probably just from embarrassment.

Raiden chuckled and let the both of us in, giving me a sly grin. That bitch.

As soon as the two of us reached my room, I slammed the door, pinning him against the wall to interrogate him. "What the hell was that?!"

"It was a joke, relax." Kazuha's voice was gentle. He wasn't as mean as the quote required, so it didn't seem snarky at all. "Sorry for saying that, but you blushed really hard, it was kind of cute." And boom, I felt my face heat up again.

"I... I wasn't blushing! I was just embarrassed! I'm not gay for fucks sake." I shut my eyes, still pinning him to the wall, my arms trapping him.

"Says the one who kissed a poor boy who was under the influence." I could hear his airy laugh surge into my ears. "And besides, who's the one pinning me right now?" I subconsciously jerked my hands away, taking a step back. Jesus, I was so embarrassed! This couldn't get any worse.

Kazuha seemed to notice me getting upset at the teasing, so he softened up a bit. "I was just joking. Let's just hang out now, yeah?" I heard him sit on my bed. I opened my eyes. He looked like he was really enjoying himself right now. I would call him a bastard, but he's my friend so I guess I'll make an exception.

"Yeah."

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Guys guess who finished the chapter 🥰🥰 yeah uhm I didn't finish it the day after like last time but I hope you all like it! See yall next chapter!