Sigh, it's a wonderful day isn't? Suns is rising, flowers are blooming... on days like these, people like you? Should understand how painful love feels...
It feels so bad that the person you used to admire so hard, so much, so obsessed, and very romantically turns out that she USED to have a crush on you but now.. present here.. everywhere or anywhere!? Oh my god...
It's painful to bear. I had to ignore her to try and let go of my admiration towards her or it will get worse.
I wonder why to myself: "Why does no one like me when I like them back?..."
The answer for myself is that, I was too much.
Too much to bear.
Too obsessed.
Too sensitive.
Too clingy..
...
Too attached.
It hurts so much that you have to hit yourself on the wall and punch your knuckles on the table like you want ot to bleed... bleed until you finish throwing a breakdown and start gaining even worse limiting depression as if that sadness is still inside you throughout relationships like:
Rayn, I was too attached. Too much... Too immature.
Tayah, I was too clingy. Too obsessed... Too possessive.
Kim, I was too much. I was an idiot. I was obsessed. I was too attached.
These 3 hurt my heart like it could never repair the old me. The old me who used to be to lively and lovely at everyone and always love the partner.
I want to cry.
I want to harm myself.
I want to scream.
I want...
I want love. That's all...
Love is so complicated that there are 3 answers for each question of: "I love you." And these 3 answers is: Rejection, Maybe, and I love you too.
These 3 answers are a choice coming from your crush.
Yet, don't be like me who's all shy... please, confess those feelings to your crush before it's too late.
