Always Running (MATURE CONTENT)

CHAPTER 33

The room was quiet. Nessa could smell a familiar scent, but she was afraid to hope. She was afraid to open her eyes and find herself somewhere strange far away from the man she loved, even though she was upset with him, she couldn't deny the fact that she loved Lucas. Knowing that she had to face whatever truth was awaiting her, Nessa opened her eyes slowly and focused on the ceiling at first, then she slowly turned her head and sat up. She recognized her surroundings.

"You're safe, Nessa." Lucas' soft and soothing voice filled her ears.

Nessa looked around the room and found Lucas sitting on a chair in front of the fireplace. His face was tired and aged.

"You with me, baby?" His soothing voice was worn out.

Nessa moved the covers from her body and stood up slowly not wanting to fall being a bit unsteady. She walked over to Lucas and stood in front of him.

"I'm with you, babe." She sat on his lap and hugged him. His arms wrapped around her waist immediately and squeezed her tight against his hard body burying his face in her chest.

She felt him shaking and she knew that the man she had believed invincible was crying. She held him tight to her and let him cry.

Lucas looked up at Nessa with tired and bloodshot eyes. "I can't live without you. When your guard came home without you I thought I would go crazy. My heart broke, Nessa. I can't do this shitty life without you." More tears streamed down his face. Nessa wiped the tears away with her own hand that broke her soul. She kissed his forehead then she kissed both his cheeks and finally she kissed his lips gently.

"We have a lot to talk about, but I'm home, you're my home, Mac."

Lucas kissed her hard on the lips. She felt his need and allowed him to kiss her. He stood up with her in his arms and walked over to the bed and laid her down as he positioned himself on top of her and began to grind against her sex as he devoured her mouth. He needed to be inside her and claim her as his over and over again. He wanted their souls to intertwine as they made love.

Nessa broke the kiss and frowned a little. "I love you, Mac, but what you did hurt me, and I can't do this right now." Nessa didn't have to fight Lucas to get off her. He moved immediately and just stared at her. There was fear in his eyes, and it made her chest ache.

"I told you I was home. I'm not leaving you, fish food. I need time is all and you need to explain certain things to me...starting with Henley."

Nessa showered with Lucas' help, which was a challenge seeing as she had to swat his hands away constantly from groping her. After they showered and dressed each in a pair of jeans and Lucas in a black Tee shirt that made his muscles bulge out and Nessa in a long sleeve purple sheer blouse with a white camisole underneath, they both headed downstairs bare foot.

It was the second time Nessa had seen Lucas so casually dressed and she liked it.

Lucas had his arm wrapped around her waist and stopped when she stopped. Nessa couldn't bring herself to take another step. She knew that the man sitting in the living room was a friend, but fear still found a way to grip her.

"I'm with you. I won't leave your side," Lucas whispered in her ear.

She nodded her head and began to move towards the man she remembered so well.

"Hey there, darlin', you finally decided to join the land of the rich and fucked up." He let out a roaring laugh that made Nessa smile.

"Thank you."

"For what, darlin'?"

She left Lucas' side and walked to Henley and put her arms around his waist. "For always being so kind to me and for bringing me back home."