Ughh!! Finally I will get my braces today. At the age of 17 .
"Ella come fast ". My father shouted.
"Yeah I am Coming Dad".Ella yells back while brisk walking.
I just don't really understand why my parents don't accept my dreams I wanna become professor at college and now I am about to do course of staff nurse. My life is literally fucked up. Ella thought.
****** Now it's time for self talk . "Ella do you remember how old were you when you first time face bullying".
"Yep I know around 4 or 5 ."
"And who did that. "
"My mother's sister."
"Yes . Good to know that you remember that and remember also that you were not meant to be loved to be cared to be cherished to be enjoying your life ".
"STUT THE FUCk UP".I literally yelled at my self and started crying in my bathroom .
∆∆∆∆∆ For those who don't understand this why is she saying these hurtful words to herself and about bullying but how can she not move on . Well it's a disorder called ocd obsessive compulsive disorder .in this disorder you keep thinking the same thing every time . And it's really affects our normal daily activities.
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"Ella come out dinner is ready." Her mom said.
"Mom just give me 5 minutes". Ella said .
About 10 minutes she come out.
What happened to you did you cried Ella. Her mom asked her.
Ella was just about to sit on the table listening to her mom words she said.
"Nothing special mom it's pretty normal in my life and I accepted myself like this.no need to worry I am alright ".
"Ella is there anything wrong happened tell me is someone bullying you in your college or something you have to tell me what's happening child".her mom said while getting up from her chair .
"Mom it's nothing ok no need to worry".
she said.
****** Ella pov It's my fucking disorder that came to me every fucking time I can't live my life .
Those fucking bullying memories came to me everytime I try to study try to read a book try to do anything.
"Ughh!!why me ". She said while holding her hair in both of her hands .
***** While trying to sleep suddenly her attention goes to the weather.
It's just mesmerizing really nature is absolute beauty.
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Well I got to know now if you have shitty mood just look at the beautiful sky it's really a breathtaking.
Let's see when this stupid life of me can change.
Hey guys:)) This is me author I know first chapter is kinda boring and mysterious but after some you got to know real story behind everything.
