Are you mine?

Chapter one

You know that ocean-going, peaceful feeling you get when you're at the movies? You are in front of a big screen, and the only thing that is impressed in your eyes are the images of the film that go by. You lose track of everything around you; your breaths are the only measure of time. You are completely immersed in what you are watching; your ears pulsating that listen carefully to the voices of the film. The noises and everything coming from the screen resonate in your chest, lungs, head. You are absorbed in a world completely alien to what you are used to living every day. Your eyes glued together, your arms attached to the chair, your bodies completely let go of the moment you are living. Don't think about what awaits you outside the cinema, the life that you will have to carry on, the thousand commitments that you will have to carry out, the thousand paranoias to which you will have to return. It's just you and the screen, nothing else. And when the movie ends and the screen goes black, you feel empty. The quietness that has lulled you and nurtured you for two or three hours ends, it is torn away with a clean blow. You need a few minutes to get used to the lights, people around you, noise and outside noises.

That's how I feel right now. I was so happy back there, in Italy, in my house goddamn house. And i'm so scared...So fucking scared. How am i even going to be fine here? How's gonna be tomorrow at my new school?

Now i'm in my new room, and i'm staring at the ceiling. I've lived in Italy since i was born, and i got the chance to move because of the parents of my job. Thinking about the fact that i'm in a whole new place, so far from my old house, adapting me once again to my fathers's work, having to build my life from the beginning...it honestly scares the shit out of me.

I pull out my phone from my pockets, a notification popping up as i open tik tok
"ayo girl, what's up? how's the new house?"
I softly smile as i read the message from my best friend...God, i miss her so much. I reply instantly.

Me: "hey girl. the new house is lovely. i wish you were here tho, i feel so lonely, wish i could smoke and drink with you right now like always"

Clara: "i got u. don't worry, i'll visit you soon. let me know how the first day of school goes. can't wait to hear about all your hookups soon.

Me: "don't start omg"

Clara: "what? i heard that copenhagen is full of sexy women"

Me: "who even told you that? 💀"

Clara: "it's not that i heard about anything. but older women seems to follow you whenever you go. honestly camille, you seriously have to stop daydreaming about women so much older but not doing anything about it. i hope you finally get the chance to be smashed by one up there"

Me: "i hate you. bye, i gotta go, stop saying bullshits.

Clara: 🫶🏻🫶🏻

I get out of Whatsapp and i open the alarm app. Damn, i really don't want to go tomorrow. I set the alarm and i place the phone on my nightstand, hoping to fall asleep quickly and just be able to get through the end of the day tomorrow without having a mental breakdown. I don't want to be here. At all.

i know this chapter is very very short but i need to get used to all of this, i've decided to start this story like an hour ago and i never done it 😭
next chapters will be longer 🫶🏻