"If you don't stop gawking at me, I might just faint by the loss of blood"
His words struck me from my own moment of checking him out, I try not to react or even lift my lips from the embarrassment
I had to accept it
"To be honest, I might faint b...
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"No" I replied non-chalantly, leaning back onto the sofa as I continued to scroll on my phone
"Come on!! You were so determined to keep me company, what happened?" Hana groans out of annoyance, hardly 'begging' for my approval
Did I feel delighted to go with her?
Yes.
Did I feel delighted to hear that she wasn't a virgin?
Not so much
The thought of her and some other douche that had the honours of being that close to her is getting to me
I hate it
I felt my ego being crushed into pieces that can't be fixed anymore and I know it can't be fixed
Someone else has done the job before I even tried to consider it
Jealousy.
I've never been so defeated in so many ways, even worse when my heart isn't feeling too well about the new information that I wish I never knew
I sighed, seeing Hana who surprisingly sat herself beside me on the sofa
"Mingyu I want you to come with me" she frowned, pushing my phone down, noticing that I was too distracted on my phone
"Take Hansol, I don't want to come"
Am I being too harsh?
Why am I so pissed at this?
It's obvious to why I'm pissed, she let some loser take something that could've been meaningful in the future
But mind you, she was sixteen, the ages around sixteen is where it's usual to lose your virginity
Maybe I'm just pissed that I never had the honours to take it, I know she'd have no regrets if she choose someone who was actually worthy
"No, he's not that good when it comes to shopping"
I was too focused on my thoughts, ignoring the fact that Hana was leaning closer to me
I look over to her, noticing her eyes were pleading for me to give in and go with her
Her doe eyes, glossing over my eyes as her hand rests onto my shoulder
I gulped nervously, seeing that she was leaning closer, I could feel the burning breath tensing up against my skin, sending goosebumps all over my body
"Please Mingyu?"
This is what scares me
The way she says please in that raspy voice that I admire a lot, maybe even too much
I'm scared that the more she says please, the word 'no' will no longer exist in my vocabulary when she's the one that says it
"It'll be nice to have a male perspective on dresses"
