my feelings

feelings about life

Life sucks. It honestly does. I sit in bed, in class, at the dinner table and wonder why "God" didn't make it any easier for us. Why is there rape, murder, and suicide? Yet no equality and barely any happiness? I don't understand any of this and it sucks. No matter how much someone explains this, I never get it. I guess it just never clicks. It's so frustrating. Anyway, there's so many things I wish life didn't have. And I guess that goes for all of us. I hate knowing that women aren't equal to men, and that bullying is still a problem. Those are my top 2 issues right now. Of course I have more than that, but it's okay. I'll probably get into detail later on about that. I know being a freshman, I won't be able to change how things are... But I wish someone could, you know? I hate thinking
"because I'm a girl I do not get equal pay with a man ( who is higher status and sooooo much better than me ) even if I do more and am much better at doing the job than him." It sickens me. I don't have ANYTHING against men by the way. It's just the way things are now a days is absolutely disgusting. And bullying is increasing because everyone thinks it went away and I'm just so tired of living in a world of hatred and negativity. The middle school I went to in 8th grade sucked ass. I'm not letting my kids experience what I had to experience. I am a shy, sensitive, sweet girl...... And I had to transfer from a private school to one of the worst public schools I have ever been too. The way the students in my class acted was absolutely horrible. I will never forget how they treated me and how they made me feel. I never want to feel like that again. The amount of disrespect I had gotten from them from simply being smart and not acting up was shameful and the fact that the only teachers who helped me was the girl ones. The guy teachers I had gave 0 fucks what so ever. Crosby middle school deserves a lower rating. 5 stars? my ass...